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I was the same, I started looking at pornography when I was 18. After buying my first pc. I became very anxious a lot of the time, whenever there was a knock at the door or the phone would ring. I would think... it was the porn police, or some government officials. Coming to speak to my parents, to let them know I was going to be prosecuted for looking at porn. The anxiety spikes of anticipation when a knock came to the door or the phone would ring... š¬ But nothing ever happened, there was never anything to worry about.
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Youād be on a watchlist first, not automatically go to prison.
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Would I know I'm on a watchlist first?
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@Blackenedisthend Nope.
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@Nica This scares me more and more... I stopped looking at it months ago but now I'm searching up the laws on it and such and it's so scary the thought of this. I am a minor and I know not much would happen but I'm so lost
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@Blackenedisthend Millions of people would be on a watchlist if they were watching porn.
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Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young š« I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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I struggle with looking back at a past social media interaction and thinking catastrophically. Itās the worst because Iāve deleted my account and canāt go back and check.. which of course my OCD wants to do. It gets to the point where Iām scared something is going to come out and Iāll get arrested one day. Itās so scary! I feel like I donāt know whatās real and whatās not anymore.
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Hey guys recently I been facing anxiety because I have a fear that I acted on something I know I didn't do but it feels real because it felt like I had attraction and arousal to a younger photo of a ex gf I feel so weird feel so anxious I need help Idk what to do
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