I’m not even attracted to people. Like in Highschool I would have massive crushes but I don’t even have a drive to be attracted to guys anymore. Like I’m just numb. I’m talking to this one dude and he’s super nice but like I just can’t like him. My mom made jokes about me becoming a nun and I thought what if but I really think it’s ocd. In Highschool I didn’t really have ocd and now that it controls my life I just am numb. I don’t wanna be numb I wanna feel again but I’m scared to feel again. I’m scared of emotions, I’m scared of feeling again and going back into a deep depression. It’s been like that for a while but now my attraction is non existent. I can’t say I’m asexual but like I do have a severe case of OCD.