usually in my case these episodes are temporary. watch youtube videos about OCD and educate yourself more on how navigate these harder times. you got this.
Then gaslight your ocd🤷♀️ YOU have the power, take it back!
I’m going through the same thing right now especially with harm ocd and the idea of becoming crazy. I just can’t comprehend that this if me now with ocd and I just feel so lost in life, in myself, but most importantly in my brain.
I can really relate to that. I am also experiencing this feeling in regards to harm ocd. I am so scared I am going crazy, or that I'm a monster. Most days I feel so muddled, and scared, and tired because of it. I want to make things better and the fact that you're on here and sharing your feelings shows that you haven't given up.
@augustine_ Same and it all just sucks cause I’m in college and in final weeks and I just feel so lost like the hope I had is slowly diminishing and it’s scary cause I want to so badly go back or be the person who I used to be before. I just want to be okay and not feel confused and feel like I’m going crazy all the time. I also want to stop doubting if my harm ocd is actually ocd or if I’m just a monster. In most days I feel like I’m actually this horrible person and I just want to escape myself and be someone else. It can just be too much sometimes even though I’m in therapy.
@CHZ Thank you for sharing, and I am not just saying this i am for real, reading some of what you just said felt like reading my own thoughts and that makes me feel a bit more like I'm not alone and so you aren't alone either. I'm also in college and that can make this really stressful because its not the most peaceful environment like you said with finals. "I want so badly to go back or be the person who I used to be before." Yes. So much. I used to be so much more full of life, and more confident, i just want that part of me back. I understand wanting to escape, I wish at times I could just hide away some where and not be found, or be able to be someone who doesn't have to deal with this, you know?
@augustine_ Yes, it’s hard not gonna lie. I’ve wanted to give up so many times but I don’t because I made a promise to myself to get better for my parents and brothers no matter how hard it gets.
@CHZ We can always chat if you want!
I strongly relate to what you said.
Hi there! Thank you so much for sharing on here. That is exactly what OCD loves to do; make you question what is your mind and what is OCD‘s mind. OCD is the doubting disorder, and it will make you doubt the things that are most important to you. It seems that OCD is making you doubt your confidence and decision making. Just remember. You can make your own decisions. You are not ruled by OCD, even if it feels like you are. Ultimately, you are the boss. Tell OCD that it is not in charge of you, and that you are confident in your decision making. I know it’s hard, but it won’t be like this forever. Keep up your hard work, you are so strong!
Wow I came back to this app after a week and it blew up. thank you to all the people to related to my experience or gave advice, without reassuring me too much! I'm doing better right now 😌 gotta keep doing those exposures and uncomfortable thoughts and feelings