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- 3y
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Same but I still can’t control the fear
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I had pest control coke spray at my new apartment brand new carpet nicest place I’ve ever been able to live in so it was a huge relief but once they sprayed majority of the carpet I’ve been panicking ever since the entire apartment changed in the instant the bug spray is dirty chemicals in my mind I even shampooed the carpet scrubbed walls baseboards outlets and still feel uneasy bout the carpets it’s hurting really bad cause they were brand new carpets now they don’t feel like that anymore the entire apartment feels contaminated to me it doesn’t feel clean and new like it did prior to him spraying I wish he would’ve never came here even though I shampooed I feel like if I dropped an object on carpet the object has the bug spray on it and it’s a dirty chemical so then I’d have to scrub it clean and wash my hands I’m scared for the future of wat new habits this mite cause and the constant fear running threw my mind bout the carpet just obsessingly thinking bout the carpet and avoiding it it’s just irrational but my ocd won’t let me believe that it’s clean.
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- 20w
i’ve been dealing with this “thing” since i was 15. (i’m 23 now) if i have a bad memory that i have done when i was really young or just an intrusive thought i feel like i need to tell my mom or boyfriend. it’s been on and off ever since but since January hit it’s been an everyday thing about the littlest things. mostly about my relationship. an example is i was talking to someone random at my job and we were talking about taxes and when im in deep thought or just thinking i do a thing where i bite my lip (not in the sexual way) and i had a thought when it happened “was that sexual?” and i felt like i did something wrong and i went for a while thinking that until i told my boyfriend about it. or like my ex’s face has popped up in my head in the most inappropriate times and i feel the need that i have to tell him. (my ex was not a good person) i feel like im a prisoner in my head everyday, trying to justify thoughts or remind myself that its just a thought. i didnt know that this was or could be a form of ocd. it runs in my family but i’ve just never considered it being this. i always called it anxiety or depression but i always felt like it is more than that.
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- 19w
I’ve been thinking a lot about how OCD changes the way we see ourselves, but I recently realized that I am not my thoughts. Just because a thought pops up doesn’t mean it’s true or that it defines me. I’ve started learning how to see OCD for what it is—just a disorder trying to trick me—and I’ve become stronger in dealing with it. Has anyone else here had a similar realization? How do you handle these thoughts when they show up?
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- 14w
i have been diagnosed with OCD & generalized anxiety disorder. for some reason, i’ve been very hyper aware of everything. like the way i talk, the way i see the world, how certain things sound/look/feel, and it’s very distressing. i feel like the hyper awareness makes me afraid of things? like for some reason, my mind attached to cartoons, and i was hyperfocusing on it, and got extremely scared, like scared of the cartoon for no reason? i’ve done this a lot, and i get scared i have psychosis or schizophrenia, or something that makes you afraid of things for no unknown reason. i feel so scared that this is my new normal…. im heartbroken. so many what if’s. did i just ruin my own life?? 💔
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