if you ever actually say you're irrational ocd worry out loud you realize how actually insane it is. really makes you take a step back and be like....??? this is what's gotten in the way of me having a good day?

I had pest control coke spray at my new apartment brand new carpet nicest place I’ve ever been able to live in so it was a huge relief but once they sprayed majority of the carpet I’ve been panicking ever since the entire apartment changed in the instant the bug spray is dirty chemicals in my mind I even shampooed the carpet scrubbed walls baseboards outlets and still feel uneasy bout the carpets it’s hurting really bad cause they were brand new carpets now they don’t feel like that anymore the entire apartment feels contaminated to me it doesn’t feel clean and new like it did prior to him spraying I wish he would’ve never came here even though I shampooed I feel like if I dropped an object on carpet the object has the bug spray on it and it’s a dirty chemical so then I’d have to scrub it clean and wash my hands I’m scared for the future of wat new habits this mite cause and the constant fear running threw my mind bout the carpet just obsessingly thinking bout the carpet and avoiding it it’s just irrational but my ocd won’t let me believe that it’s clean.