- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Same. Like I get afraid when I start feeling better because I’m afraid that I don’t have OCD, and I’m just faking it. Shits hard sending u love
Why is it how empty it will be
Maybe that’s it or I’m just afraid of living by uncertainty ? I’m worried about feeling alone? I don’t know
I have felt this. I lived with untreated OCD for 37 years because I didn't know I had it. When I first started treatment, I felt completely hopeless. I had done years of therapy and never made any progress. My mind was NEVER quiet. My thoughts were either racing a million miles an hour and there was endless chatter. ERP was crazy hard. But the benefits are SO worth it. It has been life changing for me.
I’m currently looking for treatment and I’m scared to I’m scared to get better cause if it comes back I’ll have to deal wit finding ways to do things again to work wit the new ocd if I just keep it I’ll always be strong in it and I’m scared of going threw the process of getting admitted them touching all my stuff which I don’t like and not letting me use qtips which is apart of my getting ready everyday ritual I get dressed in a certain order then put on deodorant qtips put my hair up then clean my face wit my face pads then I’m done so just not being able to use qtips in the hospital is traumatizeing just to get in the hospital and then not even be able to help my ocd.
I’m thinking about doing erp but my ocd is so severe the thought of accepting my fears happening to me makes me sick to my stomach. I also believe in the power of my words and saying I accept this Bad thing will attract it into my life. I’m not sure what I should do🥲
idk why this is such a recurrent thing for me , I get so scared through the day when I’m not distracted when I think about psychosis. or being put in a mental hospital that it gives me bad anxiety, one time I had a panic attack at the thought of having it 💔 I can’t pin point if it’s intrusive thoughts because it’s a fear of mine .. or not. I think this is the worst thought / fear I have
Ok basically I’ve had OCD symptoms since I can remember but now that I’m thinking about it maybe I don’t have OCD what if I believe it so much I have the symptoms I’m not sure and I’m so confused I guess. And I wanna get tested or therapy but I don’t even know if I have it so I’m scared to and I have to remind myself of the time I had a symptom before finding out about it so I can confirm it I don’t know how to explain what I mean I wanna get help but don’t know if I have it
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