- Username
- Anonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Same. Like I get afraid when I start feeling better because I’m afraid that I don’t have OCD, and I’m just faking it. Shits hard sending u love
Why is it how empty it will be
Maybe that’s it or I’m just afraid of living by uncertainty ? I’m worried about feeling alone? I don’t know
I have felt this. I lived with untreated OCD for 37 years because I didn't know I had it. When I first started treatment, I felt completely hopeless. I had done years of therapy and never made any progress. My mind was NEVER quiet. My thoughts were either racing a million miles an hour and there was endless chatter. ERP was crazy hard. But the benefits are SO worth it. It has been life changing for me.
I’m currently looking for treatment and I’m scared to I’m scared to get better cause if it comes back I’ll have to deal wit finding ways to do things again to work wit the new ocd if I just keep it I’ll always be strong in it and I’m scared of going threw the process of getting admitted them touching all my stuff which I don’t like and not letting me use qtips which is apart of my getting ready everyday ritual I get dressed in a certain order then put on deodorant qtips put my hair up then clean my face wit my face pads then I’m done so just not being able to use qtips in the hospital is traumatizeing just to get in the hospital and then not even be able to help my ocd.
Weird question but does anyone get the random fear that you actually “enjoy” the intrusive thoughts and OCD is just an excuse and you don’t want to get better? Or am I crazy. Of course I want to be free :(
I think I have OCD but am too scared to talk about it.
I am so scared to start getting treatment for my OCD because it would mean that it’s real—I do have OCD. Not to mention how scary the thought of facing my horrible intrusive thought and potentially uncovering something devastating about myself that I wouldn’t be able to live with. I’m so scared that I’m secretly hiding something horrible about myself and I’m just unaware of it.
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