So sick of feeling like I'm on the verge of losing my mind.. I wish I could just go ahead and turn psycho and get locked up so that at least one effing thought could be true...

There is hope! You’re brain unfortunately likes to remind you over and over what you’re afraid of. You as well as I, have a fear of losing our minds. Our brain try’s to protects us in a weird way so it shows us thoughts and feelings we don’t like. It’s so frustrating and tiring. I’m going through a bad spike myself at the moment it’s hard to realize that it’s OCD. My mind tricks me into thinking it’s worse. Just know this too will pass. You will fill like yourself you just have to get the anxiety to calm down. Easier said then done I for sure know. Sending you positive thoughts?. We can get through it together.

I can so relate to this. it’s so tough to be able to tell what thoughts are actually real and what are not like when I was struggling really really bad a while back, I just felt like I needed to be locked up to be right about something. It’s so scary but you’re so strong and we all got each other. we’re not alone and we just gotta keep fighting for the life we deserve and not the one OCD wants us to live

I'm on an atypical antipsychotic and I still have all of the same thoughts, I'm just not manic. There is no hope.

Felt that too

I definitely can relate!