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To me you seem very heterosexual (not reassuring you just a genuine observation.) For what itās worth, as a bisexual girl, I really donāt think itās possible to āloseā attraction for one gender over the other like I thought I did at one point, so at least thereās that: your attraction to males will never go away no matter what, even if you really tried your hardest to stop liking them. Also I have never ever met a lesbian/bisexual woman who ever felt anything remotely like the way you do. So thatās something else that at least sets you apart from women who arenāt straight.
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I really appreciate that. And kind a needed to hear it. Thank you I feel like and Iām not trying to be weird but sometimes I feel like my heterosexuality is probably more obvious to other people than it is to me and itās very strange sensation lol
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@Bookworm91 Iām so glad I could help!!! :D And yeah I donāt think OCD would make you stress out and obsess over whether or not youāre straight like this if you werenāt straight. I know that OCD basically attacks whatever the most important things are to you.
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@Bookworm91 Personally, Iām comfortable complimenting the appearance/clothes of both girls and guys who I have no attraction to. If I wasnāt able to compliment other peopleās appearances without it being a form of flirting etc then I wouldnāt be able to compliment anyone haha. Also I used to be super self conscious about my looks and would be jealous of other prettier girls in high school, so noticing the beauty of other women is also common for that reason.
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@Daniela! May I ask you one more thing? I wouldnāt bother you if it wasnāt really disturbing me
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@Bookworm91 Go ahead!!! Ask away ^^
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@Daniela! Can I please talk to you? I promise that I wonāt bombard like last time
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@Daniela! Itās just, I donāt want to be offensive, but I feel like I need advice only you could give cause of your orientation. I hope to GOD that isnāt rude or offensive š„ŗ
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@Bookworm91 Hey no worries! I totally understand
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@Daniela! So uhā¦is there a way youād give my post from 4 hours ago a look? I hate how needy OCD makes me š
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@Daniela! So uhā¦.guessing thatās a no?
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@Bookworm91 Sorry I was busy haha Iāll check it rn
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@Daniela! Aww thanks šš»
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