oneday🤍
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smallescapesmallescape
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i feel the same way. sometimes i'll have a few hours where i'm fine, but then the anxiety hits
bulldogmomma13bulldogmomma13
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Same. Last night I felt normal, happy even! I thought it was starting to get better. I was able to think clearly and tell myself my fears were stupid. Today is a differnt story. I'm so sick of this! It's going on 3 weeks and it never lasts this long for me.
smallescapesmallescape
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@bulldogmomma13 i'm sorry to hear that :( this is the longest thought i've had (4 months) and it's so infuriating, like when i have a good moment and a trigger ruins it
Maeh24Maeh24
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@bulldogmomma13 That's how I am. Do you have pocd too? I'd love to talk if you want
bulldogmomma13bulldogmomma13
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@smallescape Yeah this has ruined Thanksgiving, I'm hoping it's better by Christmas 😞
bulldogmomma13bulldogmomma13
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@Maeh24 I do but that theme has only gotten really bad once and that was years ago. I'm struggling with harm ocd and terrible "urges" right now. I'm scared to be around my duaghter because I have this fear of snapping and strangling her. This is by far the worst episode I've ever had and I can't seen to shake it.
kmecroz85kmecroz85
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@bulldogmomma13 Hang in there momma all will be well. I promise.
kmecroz85kmecroz85
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- 3y
So - for all of you - Hiiiiiii! I have Harm OCD. I feel like I might snap and go crazy like those evil parents you see on the news from time to time that do terrible things to their children. It SUCKS. But one thing I've learned is that OCD takes what you care most about and twists it up and serves it back to you super nasty. I love God, I love my life and my family. So naturally - my fears all revolve around self harm, harming my family, and doing something awful "in the name of Jesus." Obviously when my body isn't anxious, I know this is utter crap. But once my body has that anxious feeling all of a sudden it feels like it could be real and intrusive thoughts explode. Please know that everyone has intrusive thoughts. OCD isn't fully a thought problem, it's more of a feeling problem. We continue to have the thoughts bombard us simply bc of the attention that we give those thoughts. Recovery is a long road and not easy. It reminds me a lot of Chutes and Ladders. Every time we feel we're really pulling ahead we fall into a chute and find ourselves a few spaces back. That's OKAY. Give yourself Grace. Do not get frustrated with yourself. When you do it actually spikes the OCD. Learn to laugh about it, don't be ashamed and share your story. One thing from a spiritual view the enemy is using this to take your joy away. Don't let him. The bible has A TON of verses on fear and anxiety. I can help point you in that direction. If you want to fight back, put your chin up - share your story - when the feelings come in let them wash over you. Remember it's only temporary. Breathe through it and know that the choice is ultimately yours. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Baby steps peeps - baby steps. Above all - always have HOPE. Because there is healing, there is freedom, you will get there it just takes time. Hugs from Ohio!
kmecroz85kmecroz85
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Gahhh typo - I feel like "what if I snap" hahaha. Y'all know what I meant though.
Maeh24Maeh24
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Me too
mirbrachmirbrach
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I have had the same torturous thought for over 3 years. I’m so sick and tired of it
bulldogmomma13bulldogmomma13
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I feel the same way. I've entered a phase of being so angry, I just wanna break stuff, scream and runaway!
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