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Yesss. My therapist explained it like this. If I were to tell you to think about a pink elephant. And then immediately after tell you to stop thinking of a pink elephant. Then all you will be thinking about is a pink elephant. You can't force thoughts out you just have to let them pass. You are doing so amazing Keep fighting God bless.

My problem is when they’re there and they don’t shut up, then the anxiety, then I try my best to move on and not pay attention and the more it feels real, etc etc… it’s such a hard practice

Your not gonna get better over nite but everyday when you feel strong enough just let those thoughts and feelings be like wat does it matter if I’m thinking this stuff happens to me all the time noone has a power to keep things from happening not happening and everyone has bad things happen to them you can’t let your ocd tell you it has control over stuff like that cause it’s life positive and negative things happen even if you didn’t have ocd you’d still have negative thoughts you’d still have negative and positive things happen in your life just like you do now but your ocd is makeing you think it’s the king and you obey it to keep negative things away but it’s not so just work on little things everyday if your not haveing anxiety your not doing it rite being uncomfortable is wat you want to feel then it’ll get less and less uncomfortable and then it’ll be easier.