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I think I know what you mean.. where the OCD blurs the lines between gender and sexuality to the point where you don’t even know who you are anymore
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- 6y
I know exactly what you mean by "you feel like your life is going to change forever". Part of me feels like ill never be the same after this which is frightening. I feel like im outside of my own body most days. Ive been having better ups since ive started just letting the thoughts be there but its so hard and tiring. I feel so alien.
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yep!!
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Im a trans guy and for a while flip flopped between "well maybe im just nb" for a bit especially during this. Mostly it was because of pressure, but my so-ocd made me question my gender identity a lot because its been fucking with my thoughts.
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Same. Like is more devastating why* you think about this now than the real question at all... I mean, if something has to be, has to be, and that should makes us feel complete or happy. But this feels like numb, stupid, obsessing, terrific... Giving answer of yes or not being this or that is never enough, it doesn't make me feel better. It just gives us anxiety and not answering too xd I know this takes a lot of time but I hate egodistonic thoughts, ugh.
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- 6y
Thank you all, you are all right ♡ I don't know exactly how I feel about this. I think is ocd because I already have hocd and I think that being nb is actually really possible for me because I'm loosing the way I see sex or genders and that's killing me in some way too, even if is not a bad thing, I feel empty and lost all the time, like is too much for me, I know people who is nonbinary and they are really happy about their identity. Being queer is okay for me ♡ but this makes me believe like Im in a transition even if I just cry every day since this popped in my head and even in my dreams I can't escape or sleep more than 5 hours of this thought xd I think that in my compulsion I had read too much about SOOCD and I associate every single shit. I'm actually trying to fight hocd and I'm a little better but this has no sense now... I had never questioned this or had felt it neccesary to be someone. Don't you feel sometimes your life is going to change for any of these thoughts like forever. Like there is no in between. Like is the thought or nothing and even the thought makes you feel no one. I don't want to lose who I am but my head also tells me this is real and being a girl has no meaning... Again thank you all... I feel less lonely about this. Like you all understand me better than anyone ♡
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- 25w
Anyone else with HOCD get thoughts of like "people in denial try to distract themselves" or anything along those lines when just trying to move on from the thoughts. Having a pretty bad episode this morning at least anxiety wise.
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- 23w
I feel like evryone is saying yeah the worst part is not knowing what my actual sexuality is however for me its like not that but more about being another sexuality and not being able to be with my bf because "my body and my truth are stronger then my will to stay with my bf". I also have the fear of SOOCD ending up being true or for example and more specifically liking it and never going back to men... I dont know if anyone relates to that, let me know!
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- 20w
Just tired af... Anyone else feels like everything is a lie all the time and there is no "before the OCD I was boy crazy" just the OCD since forever... or denial because of that aspect? Really struggeling with the physical aspect of SOOCD : looking at a women's body and really feeling something and getting turned on and looking at a man's and not feeling anything... I just dont understand! I asked my friends and many of them said they dont feel anything looking at a man's body as well (they're straight) but also looking at a women's doesnt feel like much. I just dont understand ughhhh
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