Yeah or like, am I ocd enough? Am I doing the things an OCD person would do? Like I’m really struggling at the moment because it feels like I want my intrusive thoughts to be true. Idk
Yes and I’m very grateful my therapist knew me well enough to warn me about that when she diagnosed me. For me the exposure is any thought that basically says, “I have to FIX my ocd and I have to do everything right in my ERP in order to do so.” I don’t need a planned exposure when it’s already there naturally. The key is recognizing those are ocd thoughts as quickly as possible and treating them the same as any other ocd thought. Letting the thought exist instead of resisting it or giving into it, choosing not to do compulsions. my standards for this are avoidance or obsessive plans to “do erp perfectly”… lists of all the exposures I could ever do and prioritizing them all and ahhhhh. And then ya know, “maybe, maybe not.” “Maybe I’m doing recovery well, maybe not. I am doing what I can today.”
This is great advice, I can relate to this a lot and will try to implement into my recovery. Thanks!