Intrusive thoughts are like words. If you think of a word hard enough/long enough, it starts to sound funny. It becomes distorted in your mind. The more you say it to yourself, the more you think of this word, the more meaning it loses. The funnier it sounds. It’s hard to reconnect it to its meaning. Later, when you happen to think of it again after taking space from it, you can see it for what it is. It’s clear again and the meaning is back. This is how I feel about intrusive thoughts. The harder I repeat them/think about them, the more distorted and unclear they become. It’s hard to make sense of them. When I take space from them by avoiding compulsions, they make more sense and I can see them for what they are: just random thoughts.

for me, it's like there's two folders of my thoughts, 'main thoughts' and 'sub thoughts' and it's like a background voice of my background voice, you know? like so quiet and irrelevant but it's still here and i can try to ignore it but not fully and it feels like it's just really nasty, like it's warring with me, never shuts up and just keeps nagging me with those thoughts

Please how can an intrusive thought be distinguished from our own thoughts ?

Is there something wrong with me if I’m not disgusted by my intrusive thoughts anymore like the disgust feeling has been gone for months now and why are my thoughts feel like they’re literally so close happening inside my brain why can I lowkey physically feel the images of that makes sense,Why do I get adrenaline why do I get a weird tingle my lips sometimes make an awkward like position when I get the thoughts it’s like I’m having a glitch idek which thought is intentional which one is intrusive but there bad thoughts and I don’t want them to be the truth about me but I literally cannot get myself to just feel relaxed even if they’re present like I actually get genuine headaches and feel uneasy for hours after having intrusive thoughts and I hate how it’s always the same kinda thoughts and sensations feelings etc around those thoughts out of nowhere when I’m just chilling they come in before when I had it is be like okay ew weird thought now I’m like what if I actually like this and I’m in denial uGHHH HATE MY BRAIN