What is the worst theme you guys deal with? And what intrusive thoughts come with it? This is totally a judgment free zone

Pocd and moral ocd. HIGHKEY ruined my life. Effects every minute of everyday. Creeps into my nightmares. Hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours if rumination and hating myself and contemplating suicide and attempting suicide. Have my ocd and depression chant over and over to smash my head into the wall or floor. Wanting to scrape off my skin. Constantly confused. Losing my sense of being, my sense of life. Forgetting what the sun feels like. What seasons are like. What it feels like to be peacefully happy. I can’t catch a break even when I’m sleeping my mind is torturing me, confusing me. I feel broken, I feel gutted, I feel like a disgusting pile of mush and misery. I feel repulsive. I see myself in the mirror and feel disconnected and disgusted. ocd in general has ruined my sad life.

Relationship OCD is fucking me up so much. I've only had toxic flings with other men and never had rocd with them. Now I have the most healthy, loving and beautiful boyfriend ever and I have urges to break up with him, cheat and runaway from him. It makes me feel like I don't deserve healthy relationships and I'm doomed to be unhappy in love.

I get sexually weird or incredibly gruesome images. It was hard for me because I grew up in the Bible belt. I didn't know how to interpret me being straight but having weird sexual intrusive thoughts at super inconvenient times. I still am trying to loosen the death grip that my thoughts have no roots in me just because they happen to be the noise my brain is emitting at that specific moment. I worked as a public defender, and some of the images/thoughts I get are vivid to the point of disgust. It's a fucked up mental illness, but it helps me so much to talk about it because I kept it all to myself for so long. It's also cathartic to know that others struggle similarly, and I'm not alone.

Not the most difficult or prevalent, but the most disturbing thoughts are absolutely the ones around pedophilia and beastiality. Always the what ifs. The worst was when I convinced myself to not have children because I thought I would touch them inappropriately. After a lot of working on my mental health, I realize just how irrational that thinking was.

POCD and Real Event OCD

Harm ocd is my worst one. It constantly tries to convince me that I am a violent person and want to do something harmful or asks me why I haven’t yet. It’s terrible, all my life I’ve focused on being a good person. I don’t understand where this is coming from and why it’s so believable. But I don’t wanna give into it ever

POCD combined with false memory. It makes me feel like a monster!

Sexual orientation ocd, but i feel like ive had rocd as well in the past now that i look back at how i coped with them.

Gender Identity OCD. Just having everything about my identity shredded, doubting all of my wants in likes, feeling like a man in my head near constantly, worrying that it’s true but also worrying that I’m not worried and that I do want it. It’s really got me in it’s clutches right now