I just did a mentality change that is really helping me with my doubts. We all have doubts right (rocd and pure ocd)? So what If we use our doubts as motivations to become a better version of ourselves? Obviously not by listening to them or giving them importance, but watching them from a different point of view! I'm just venting, but I would love a your opinion on that!! I think this is a very very powerful mentality!! If you want to try with your doubts too, maby it can helps!! For examples! [TW] (thought->motivation) _ "maby I don't love him enough" -> "I want to heal to love him even more, let's see how!" _ "maby we are not right" -> "I would love to be right, what can I do to improve my relationship and becoming even more right" _ "maby he doesn't love me enough" -> "what can I do to make myself feel more loved (by him and by myself too), I want to do somethingthat turn him on again, that can embrace his and mine qualities!" _ "will I ever be able to feel emotions again?" -> "I want to feel emotions again. What can I do? I think therapy can help so let's start it!"

That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.

These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.

I'm struggling really hard with relationship obsessions. Do I really love my partner? How can I know? Am I really just faking it? That kind of thing. It's making my life and relationship a lot harder than they need to be. I could use a few helpful coping mechanisms, trying to move away from less helpful ones like chasing reassurance.