js94
- Date posted
- 6y
Mike1234Mike1234
- Date posted
- 6y
I really beginning to think that this might be related to not being able to establish and maintain relationships (current or past) and then questioning yourself about it. Did you or are you having problems with women?
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
It’s to the point where anything triggers it.
AFord15AFord15
- Date posted
- 6y
Is it because you constantly have the anxiety and distressed images that don’t allow you to be aroused or are you not interested in having sex with them at all?
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
Me all the time. It’s driving me crazy.
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
Almost 3 months
JosephalexJosephalex
- Date posted
- 6y
I've been with this shit for 4 years. Ruined my life. I have no sexual drive and almost any sexual desire for women. Anything could trigger that feeling of panic and angusih. Depression is always around the corner. It's hell. Did anyone also lose attraction to women?
Brooklyn33Brooklyn33
- Date posted
- 6y
Several months... I feel like I don't know who I am anymore... like I am not real... I hate despersonalization
AFord15AFord15
- Date posted
- 6y
What’s up guys, I’m in a relationship currently as of 2 years. My HOCD has gotten progressively worse over the past month. Every time I reassure myself and read someone else story I’m always able to pick out various things of how I can’t be gay. Now my mind is trying to convince me that isn’t true. I’ve never been sexually attracted to a man but now I’m in fear that I should watch gay porn just to confirm I won’t be aroused. I can’t believe I’m at this point. I’ve watched countless porn videos and never even paid attention to the guy. It’s like I transformed into a homosexual overnight. I still get hard when having fantasies about women but I just don’t understand why I’m having these thoughts and why they won’t go away.
AFord15AFord15
- Date posted
- 6y
My biggest issue right now is when I fantasize about sex. I never had intrusive thoughts sexually about a man when it first started. But when I watch porn I’m able to get aroused without much of a problem, the issue is that I start to get intrusive thoughts and during and then I make myself think it’s the images that make me aroused. So now I watch lesbian porn instead to take the guy out of it. But the shitty thing is I still constantly think about it and keep checking to see if I get aroused and I fear I’m conditioning my mind to get used to the thoughts or that it’s something I want
JM1998JM1998
- Date posted
- 6y
I feel all of you on this. I’ve dealt and still deal with HOCD since January. My problem is now when I feel like myself again, I’ll look at porn or my gf and fantasize about her but then one of my friends will pop in my head and I feel uncomfortable.
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
Groinal Responses are normal with hocd, I have them all the time. It’s torture. My advice is to stop watching any type of porn and to searching for reassurance.
zidzad1zidzad1
- Date posted
- 6y
They’re not normal like mine, I feel a semi erection maybe even a full erection it makes me very sad
Mike1234Mike1234
- Date posted
- 6y
How long has this been occurring several weeks or several months?
js94js94
- Date posted
- 6y
I have hocd for almost 6 years
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
Damn I can’t imagine having it for that long. I want to get back to how I used to be with women but my mind is saying that I don’t want that.
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
And groin responses don’t help much.
Mike1234Mike1234
- Date posted
- 6y
Are you guys in relationships right now?
Mike1234Mike1234
- Date posted
- 6y
Try the organic raw Maca powder to boost drive. I sprinkle or dust a little on cereal every few days.
Mike1234Mike1234
- Date posted
- 6y
SoffSoff
- Date posted
- 6y
I’ve had HOCD for about 5 months
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
My ex girlfriend ended our relationship 7 months ago, the breakup recovery process was horrible but now I am pretty much over her. I used to get random thoughts about if I was gay or when I saw a guy that I would consider him attractive but I quickly ignored the thoughts like it was nothing. Now the thoughts came back stronger than ever about 2 months ago and it’s been pure hell. I have no sexual drive at all and when I do get aroused by women, my erection only last a few minutes and then thoughts of guys and what If I don’t like this come in and the mood goes out the window. It’s terrible.
Mike1234Mike1234
- Date posted
- 6y
High stresses and uncertainty could be exacerbating these types of thoughts.
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
Well my only problem right now is that I have women that want to get with me but I feel no sexual attraction towards them. And the groin responses I’m getting because of my hocd is really taking a toll on me
Mike1234Mike1234
- Date posted
- 6y
To re-condition the thought pattern switch from intrusive aroused thoughts immediately over to thoughts and images of every sexual female detail and attribute.
AFord15AFord15
- Date posted
- 6y
That’s rough man, I couldn’t imagine if it was one of my friends. Would it help as an exposure to talk to them and maybe relieve your anxiety during that moment? Kind of let the thoughts come in and respond to them rather than react?
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
I’m not that interested in some of them, but I have really bad performance anxiety, and I’m also scared of thoughts of guys popping up in my head since this happens when I masturbate.
JM1998JM1998
- Date posted
- 6y
Yes! Happens to me as well
zidzad1zidzad1
- Date posted
- 6y
I’ve been checking gay porn for arousal it’s really depressing
zidzad1zidzad1
- Date posted
- 6y
I’m really depressed I got a groinal response I can’t deal with it I can’t do it anymore
zidzad1zidzad1
- Date posted
- 6y
Help
zidzad1zidzad1
- Date posted
- 6y
What does it mean
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- Date posted
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- Date posted
- 19w
HOCD made you feel horn.y?
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