Happy sunday night y'all!🤗💗 Please give me some props for having an amazing day despite my ex trying to reach out for the 2nd time 😩. I wasn't even triggered, which is a major win! A picture from today's outing with a friend :) its been a gorgeous day today 😊

Do you live in England?

what a beautiful photo!

Pretty!! 😍 I’m glad you had a great day!! 🤩 👍🏻 Almost done Christmas gift shopping! My stress levels are finally coming down... 😂🥳

That’s what I tell myself! 😋 And since I don’t smoke I use that as an argument too! Better to spend on sports wear than cigarettes! 🤷‍♀️ Hope your Hanukkah was good!! 🎈🍰

Hey Alexis. I know I'm late but happy Hanukkah! I know I haven't been online on here in a little but I hope and pray that you are doing well. I've just been so busy lately, and when I do have free time I don't necessarily always feel like getting online on here, it feels overwhelming sometimes. I've been doing pretty good recently though, last week I had 4 really good days, I was really happy. Today and yesterday were pretty difficult though, I don't know why, my OCD just started driving me crazy again, lol. I've missed my friends on here though. Life is just so busy, I feel like I just can't keep up anymore. I've been having trouble sleeping too recently and I really don't know why, I didn't used to have trouble sleeping, but I'm trying to stay positive. I hope and pray things are well with you and your family and that you and your dad's relationship is getting better. :) I'll continue to be in prayer for you. God bless Alexis. Have a good night! :)

You're doing so well Alexis! ❤️. Keep it up 😌

You're welcome Alexis, you're sweet too, I enjoy talking with you on here. And yeah, sometimes life will just have its overwhelming moments I guess, other times it calms down more, I just wish I didn't feel so overwhelmed about the small everyday things that are just normal. And yeah, honestly I feel like I have a lot of really good conversations with people on here though, I have good conversations on social media too I guess, but I don't get on social media a whole lot. I'm glad you're having a lot of good days too Alexis! :) all we can do is take life one day at a time, I always try my best on the difficult days to remember that at the end of the day I'm still alive and breathing and that better days are coming and then I try to remember some really great days that I've had in the past and it encourages me to push forward through the anxiety that I'm facing so that I can reach those days again! 😀 I'm not sure exactly why I'm having trouble sleeping, I just keep waking up really early before my alarm goes off and I just feel super awake all of a sudden and not being able to relax and fall back to sleep. Some nights I can but other nights I can't. I also keep having really bad panic attacks in the mornings now for some reason, they'll normally last for like 30 or 45 minutes, they start basically as soon as I wake up. My heart starts racing and my OCD just goes into overdrive in the morning, but it'll normally calm down on the way to work or when I start work in the morning. I'm sorry you have a compulsive urge to check your phone super early in the morning. Maybe you could put your phone in another room in the house before you go to bed at night so that the next day when you wake up you might be less likely to go get it from the other room? I don't know if that would be considered ERP or avoidance though to be honest, lol. Anyways, its just a suggestion. Hopefully it'll all get better for us both. :) And you're welcome, I try my best to pray daily, sometimes I forget to pray for specific people though in my prayers. And I know what you mean. I get along with my parents and sister really well now, but when I was a teenager I would argue with my parents a lot, so in order to have less drama I would just try not to talk with them too much sometimes. Looking back on it though makes me really sad because I love my family and I want to have a great relationship with all of them. I definitely understand how you feel though, I think it's good that you're trying to take care of yourself right now, I think it's very important. I also hope and pray though that things will get better with you and your family and that you'll all find peace with each other, I believe you all deserve to have a happy relationship together. :) and thank you! I hope you're having a wonderful day Alexis! :)

Yeah, I want to learn to slow down and not feel so much pressure from the stresses of life, but it's very difficult. But yeah, I guess if life were easy and effortless then it wouldn't be fun. I'm trying my best to stay positive, but some days it's just so difficult. No, nothing specific, all of my intrusive thoughts vary a lot, it's never completely the same, which makes it more difficult I think. And yes, I'm definitely finding myself expecting the panic attacks and stress in the morning, but I dont want to... I want to wake up feeling peaceful and rested and just happy. I'm glad to try and give some advice though when I can. I hope it's going well not using your phone as much. I'm glad prayer gives you encouragement and you feel like it's a nice thing for people to do. :) Yeah, I know my situation probably wasn't a lot like the one you're in with your family, but I understand that sometimes hurtful things can be said that cause a lot of damage, but I've found it just makes my heart feel so much better when I forgive a person that has wronged me in some way. Don't get me wrong though, it's easier said than done, but in the end it just brings so much more peace to my heart. I'm not trying to tell you what to do though, and I know I don't know every detail of your situation, so I apologize if I'm being insensitive, I just wanted to give the advice I have to offer. :) I can't even believe that happened to you though, that's so messed up and makes me so sad and mad to hear... 😢 I'm just so sorry to hear that Alexis... I pray you'll feel peace and comfort in your heart my friend. God bless you Alexis.