- Date posted
- 7y
- Date posted
- 7y
It does get better. It may not feel like it now but it will get better. It always does. When you’re stuck in the thought process it feels like it will last forever but I’m sure you were stuck in this place before and it got better. Nothing lasts forever. That’s what I tell myself when my OCD is at its worst.
- Date posted
- 7y
@waluigi - I am trying to do things I learned here. I treat intrusive thoughts as OCD thoughts that aren’t mine. I don’t want them. Today I read about this: Treat intrusive thoughts as liars. Every time when somebody is lying to me I don’t care. Let him lie but don’t give him any respect any merit. Intrusive thoughts are the same. They are real in our head but that doesn’t mean they are reflecting real world. Let them be where they are, don’t resist but don’t give them any credit. Sometimes I say to myself aloud: Ahaaa, hello OCD, you again ? - to remind that thought is not mine.
- Date posted
- 7y
Mornings are worse for me too. Hang in there. It will pass! I was in the same place a month ago. I thought this was going to last forever and I was going to be locked away in a mental hospital. I increased my dose of Zoloft, started seeing my psychologist again and the thoughts have really calmed down. I never thought I would be able to feel somewhat normal again. I still have my ups and downs but it’s better than it was.
- Date posted
- 7y
I know exactly how this feels. I know it got better for me as well when my medication was upped. I’m always afraid of being locked away in a mental hospital. I’ve been an inpatient in a few 4 times. One of my biggest goals is to not go back as patient. I do want to work in a psych ward though. I want to help people with similar problems as me. I think that is my true purpose in life❤️
- Date posted
- 7y
@Critcrat that’s so reassuring to hear... i’m trying to stay strong and i know the worst of the storm is gone but i just can’t help but feel so empty. but thank you, i feel like sometimes i only hear difficulties. :-(
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- 20w
I'm at my college and don't feel like being here. I didn't even want to come here. I woke up with anxiety bc i feel like i need to solve this. I had a bad stomach ache when i arrived to school and still havent even eaten breakfast yet bc i feel like i have to solve this. Im just so worried bc i have harm thoughts daily. If i could i would remove this! I dont want to think anymore. Its just, how do I know i dont have real urges when I'm feeling a negative emotion like anger or disappointment or annoyance? Im worried EVERY time i feel a negative emotion. Yesterday I was playing video games with my neice (we are close in age range) and she made us lose. She started blaming me and I guess i felt a little annoyed, it really wasnt my fault (dumb mini argument it was more playful since we started laughing but it was a bit annoying). Anyway i got a harm thought while feeling annoyed of me getting off the couch and lunging at her to attack. I immediately look at my bodily reaction and I tense up to stay as still as possible. My stomach was hurting and i wanted to leave as fast as possible. I stood up and turned off the game and said i was tired while making sure to stay back from her (and i had my hands away and stiff) but i felt so uneasy. I laid I bed and felt sad and heavy. And i kept getting thoughts that said "íts only a matter of time before you can't take it anymore". I started to reassurance seek using ai to ask if i was about to or if they are real urges or thoughts i mean until i eventually fell asleep in the middle of the compulsion. Im just so worried, what if I act out impulsevly one day? I dont want to! But what if when feeling a negative emotion, i suddenly dont care and do something? I really dont want to! I dont even want to feel negative emotions anymore since they trigger the thoughts and I dont want to think about any of that. As a result i tend to avoid my family as much as possible bc they are annoying sometimes. I just wish i was all alone sometimes so i wont get any more thoughts and so everyone can be safe. I usually just stay in bed under my blankets all day long to avoid my family and pets. I am constantly uncomfortable. I miss when i would never think any of this. Living life has become very scary for me now. 😞
- Date posted
- 16w
I genuinely can't help but feel irredeemable over every little mistake made or regret I've had. It's so up and down, but I just miss the certainty. Knowing "this is who I am." I'm so disconnected from myself. Like, I'm really, really trying. Today is really rough... I got triggered the other night, and it's been hell since. I've been fighting seeking reassurance. I want it so, so incredibly bad, but I know it won't help me :( Some days, I just don't want to be here. It's funny because yesterday I felt amazing until I got triggered. I just immediately spiraled after that. I don't know. Does it genuinely get better? Will therapy really help me? Sometimes, I think maybe this is the best it'll get, and that scares me. Sorry for the vent. I'm just feeling so overwhelmingly anxious right now. I can't even cry (due to Zoloft). It feels claustrophobic somehow, having all these emotions trapped inside of my body with nowhere to go 😭
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- Date posted
- 14w
I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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