everytime i wake up and the intrusive thought is still there or i wake up just... panicked i feel so defeated. i know it can’t go away in a day but i really wish i would. and even when i know my thoughts aren’t me and what i want, i can’t help but wonder if i can ever really go back to who i once was. i’ve spent so long panicking and thinking that no matter what, it’ll always be there. i’m sorry for being so negative, but the mornings are always the worst for me.

It does get better. It may not feel like it now but it will get better. It always does. When you’re stuck in the thought process it feels like it will last forever but I’m sure you were stuck in this place before and it got better. Nothing lasts forever. That’s what I tell myself when my OCD is at its worst.

@waluigi - I am trying to do things I learned here. I treat intrusive thoughts as OCD thoughts that aren’t mine. I don’t want them. Today I read about this: Treat intrusive thoughts as liars. Every time when somebody is lying to me I don’t care. Let him lie but don’t give him any respect any merit. Intrusive thoughts are the same. They are real in our head but that doesn’t mean they are reflecting real world. Let them be where they are, don’t resist but don’t give them any credit. Sometimes I say to myself aloud: Ahaaa, hello OCD, you again ? - to remind that thought is not mine.

Mornings are worse for me too. Hang in there. It will pass! I was in the same place a month ago. I thought this was going to last forever and I was going to be locked away in a mental hospital. I increased my dose of Zoloft, started seeing my psychologist again and the thoughts have really calmed down. I never thought I would be able to feel somewhat normal again. I still have my ups and downs but it’s better than it was.

I know exactly how this feels. I know it got better for me as well when my medication was upped. I’m always afraid of being locked away in a mental hospital. I’ve been an inpatient in a few 4 times. One of my biggest goals is to not go back as patient. I do want to work in a psych ward though. I want to help people with similar problems as me. I think that is my true purpose in life❤️

@Critcrat that’s so reassuring to hear... i’m trying to stay strong and i know the worst of the storm is gone but i just can’t help but feel so empty. but thank you, i feel like sometimes i only hear difficulties. :-(