everytime i wake up and the intrusive thought is still there or i wake up just... panicked i feel so defeated. i know it can’t go away in a day but i really wish i would. and even when i know my thoughts aren’t me and what i want, i can’t help but wonder if i can ever really go back to who i once was. i’ve spent so long panicking and thinking that no matter what, it’ll always be there. i’m sorry for being so negative, but the mornings are always the worst for me.

Username: Critcrat Critcrat

Date posted: 6y ago

It does get better. It may not feel like it now but it will get better. It always does. When you’re stuck in the thought process it feels like it will last forever but I’m sure you were stuck in this place before and it got better. Nothing lasts forever. That’s what I tell myself when my OCD is at its worst.

Username: JJjjJJjj

Date posted: 6y ago

@waluigi - I am trying to do things I learned here. I treat intrusive thoughts as OCD thoughts that aren’t mine. I don’t want them. Today I read about this: Treat intrusive thoughts as liars. Every time when somebody is lying to me I don’t care. Let him lie but don’t give him any respect any merit. Intrusive thoughts are the same. They are real in our head but that doesn’t mean they are reflecting real world. Let them be where they are, don’t resist but don’t give them any credit. Sometimes I say to myself aloud: Ahaaa, hello OCD, you again ? - to remind that thought is not mine.

Username: Critcrat Critcrat

Date posted: 6y ago

Mornings are worse for me too. Hang in there. It will pass! I was in the same place a month ago. I thought this was going to last forever and I was going to be locked away in a mental hospital. I increased my dose of Zoloft, started seeing my psychologist again and the thoughts have really calmed down. I never thought I would be able to feel somewhat normal again. I still have my ups and downs but it’s better than it was.

Username: AnxiousashleyAnxiousashley

Date posted: 6y ago

I know exactly how this feels. I know it got better for me as well when my medication was upped. I’m always afraid of being locked away in a mental hospital. I’ve been an inpatient in a few 4 times. One of my biggest goals is to not go back as patient. I do want to work in a psych ward though. I want to help people with similar problems as me. I think that is my true purpose in life❤️

Username: waluigiwaluigi

Date posted: 6y ago

@Critcrat that’s so reassuring to hear... i’m trying to stay strong and i know the worst of the storm is gone but i just can’t help but feel so empty. but thank you, i feel like sometimes i only hear difficulties. :-(

Username: getwellsoon

Date posted: 4y ago

so i feel like i need to vent because all of this is just building up, 3 months ago when i had my first intrusive thought that caused an obsession that went on for weeks and then every other week a new intrusive thought would pop up and i’d obsess over that one. and it continues with multiple themes. some even similar to the one i’m dealing with right now but for some reason this one feels so much more real then again all the themes did. i really don’t know how to explain it, frightened if it’s just me. some days i feel completely numb to it like i’m a bad person but if that was so why would i keep fighting it and being in distress over it. it’s breaking my heart. i should know that it’s no coincidence since i’ve been dealing with this thing. whatever it might be ): i really don’t want to give up but i’m just scared. it all feels wrong and i feel numb or sometimes the ugliest stuff pops into my head. also the old themes have tried popping up again. i wonder if this whole thing is just my fault if it’s all just me but the truth is i guess i’ll never know... there’s so much more i could say... but i hope someone can relate to this... is it possible to feel just completely not like yourself like you’re trying so hard to just be the way you are but it’s hard because you have to sit with the fear inside your head... cause tbh there’s no other choice

Username: janed0e

Date posted: 1y ago

ugh

I just wish I’d never entertained the first ever intrusive thought I had like maybe I wouldn’t have spiraled so far for so long. it’s always on and off every moment of the day like I’m actually gonna be suffering for the rest of my life

Username: OCD-Newbie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Waking up

Does anyone else become nervous and upset the moment they wake up in the morning? It’s like part of me wishes I didn’t wake up or could just stay asleep. It’s scary and I’m not sure what to do in the morning when I feel like I’m trapped in bed.

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