Sounds like you're looking for reassurances, which only make the OCD worse. You might want to practice writing scripts.
Hi there! Thank you so much for sharing on here. I’ve definitely struggled with this. It felt like my mind was consumed with how others would view me if they knew what was going on in my head. It felt like I was always lying to others or keeping a big secret, even though it’s not their business to know what’s going on in my head. Maybe try sitting with some uncertainty statements such as, “They may or may not see me as…if they knew what was going on in my head.” I know that your OCD feels strong and overpowering right now, but it won’t always be like this. It takes a lot of hard work, but you can definitely show OCD that you are the boss!