- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Hi there! Thank you so much for sharing on here. I’ve definitely struggled with this. It felt like my mind was consumed with how others would view me if they knew what was going on in my head. It felt like I was always lying to others or keeping a big secret, even though it’s not their business to know what’s going on in my head. Maybe try sitting with some uncertainty statements such as, “They may or may not see me as…if they knew what was going on in my head.” I know that your OCD feels strong and overpowering right now, but it won’t always be like this. It takes a lot of hard work, but you can definitely show OCD that you are the boss!
Sounds like you're looking for reassurances, which only make the OCD worse. You might want to practice writing scripts.
So, if I'm retelling a story or relaying information to someone, after I'm done speaking, my brain will send me thoughts like, "What if you lied? You might have told the story wrong! You're lying!" I've started second-guessing myself, even when I know I'm not lying or telling the story wrong😭 This has also bled into twisting my intentions behind certain actions... For example, the other day, I'd been babysitting my younger brothers. I'd gone to use the restroom and thought, "What if the door isn't locked or closed all the way?" Because this has happened once in the past. Turns out, it didn't lock correctly, and one of my little brothers almost walked in on me, but luckily, I shut the door in time, and we laughed it off. But then, I kept getting thoughts like, "You knew that would happen, and you didn't double-check! You wanted that to happen and for him to walk in!" :( I know this isn't true, but it's so annoying! Has anyone dealt with this? If you have, do you have any advice on how to deal with these thoughts?
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
Does confessing an intrusive thought just make it come back stronger?
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