I had OCD when I was dating my husband. It was horrendous. I constantly was like “how do you know this is the right choice?” It was so horrible. At the time I didn’t know it was OCD so I just lived in that space. It was so awful. I also have sexual orientation OCD from time to time (I am bisexual and have POCD). I get it. I think OCD is just gonna happen. It seems to always go after whatever is most important to you. When I was dating, it went after my relationship. When I got pregnant, it went after my child. Whatever is most important - that’s where it’s gonna hit.
Hi, did you realise you were bisexual before you had OCD or did the OCD make you realise?
@gareth9x I knew I was attracted to multiple genders. I didn’t have a label. But my POCD journey taught me that it’s okay to have a label admit that I’m attracted to multiple genders and in doing so doesn’t automatically mean I’ll also be attracted to children. So me recovering from POCD is what led to me finally giving myself permission to label myself.
@precious.lions Ah that makes sense, I have suspicions that I'm bisexual and I'd be fine with that I'm just worried that it will make me lose attraction to women and I'll have to break up with my girlfriend. OCD is horrible.
@Ope It's horrible, I know for definite that I was attracted to her when I met her but now that this OCD has started I'm questioning literally everything. It's like my whole life has been a lie and I was never attracted to women.
@gareth9x That’s exactly how i feel just opposite. I also have suspicions that i could be bi which i’m fine with but as soon as i tell myself i’m okay with just being bi my brain tells me “well if u say ur bi u probably just don’t actually like men at all” it’s so hard
@hannah and it makes me feel like i’ll have to break up with my boyfriend too:(
@Ope exactly ugh it’s the worst. Like how are we ever supposed to feel confident in our sexual orientation of our brain doesn’t ever let us just make a decision or something
@Ope I hope it gets better for u :( I really just wanna be able to be happy with my boyfriend too
@Ope I just told my girlfriend everything about my thoughts, hardest thing I've ever done. Genuinely hope this is just OCD because she's so amazing and I don't want to break up with her.