cried for 5 hours straight call that a world record 💪🔥💯 grind never stops

im so tired of trying to express my feeling and feeling so dumb. im so angry and my chest hurts from sadness and stress all the time with no one to talk to, this is so lonely. the only friend i had got annoyed with me and said maybe this is happening because i dont listen. i hate this so much and i gained so much weight from stress. i cant look pretty or happy if i tried.

will i ever be free or is this all there is for the rest of my life

i got broken up with right before going back to college and i was dating him for 6 years. he was my crutch and my go to comfort person. and now i feel so lost and sad and im like getting suicidal ocd again like im scared im gonna die from this like something is gonna take over because i feel so terrible right now its only been 4 days