Does a compulsion to a specific obsession have to be the same each time for it to be considered an OCD loop? Sometimes I respond with avoidance, sometimes I respond with reassurance seeking, sometimes I respond with rumination. All to the same subtype of OCD. Sorry for all the questions from my account. I want to better understand these things so I can catch them and let the thoughts pass through. Sometimes it's really hard to distinguish this from depression due to the sad nature of it all.

Yeah that's how I feel. I find it's because I try not to repeat the same compulsion, but then I end up with responding with a different one anyways.

@AnonOCDsufferer Ya it can be like that

Yes! That is excellent advice. I do that as well.

I hate thats how live at the moment, it has gotten so bad I get anxious going to bed because of the thoughts and then I wake up okay for half a second, but because I am not mentally prepared the first thing I get is a "what if"

Thank you. It's helpful to hear. As I can literally have the intrusive thought "what if you gf isn't faithful" and then respond with compulsively avoiding contact or conversation till the anxiety goes, asking for reassurance, or ruminating... sometimes for hours.

@AnonOCDsufferer Yep. You can do multiple compulsions for one intrusive thought or trigger. A compulsion is anything you think, say, or do in an attempt to relieve your anxiety