I’m going wit my bf down to a mental hospital there not really for ocd just a regular mental hospital and I no they can’t really help all my ocd problems but I’m so depressed from my ocd and not taking care of myself and haveing really high anxiety I just feel hopeless so I no I need to get somewere and get medication and be safe for a few days away from my apartment I have a really nice apartment we just moved to but they sprayed our brand new carpets wit bug spray and I’ve just been extremely upset since I feel everything’s contaminated I don’t want stuff touching the carpet which has been hard since there’s alot of carpet in here but it’s not the just the carpet it’s affecting other parts of my life and ocd and makeing other things hard I need help but going threw admissions we’re there touch your stuff and make you undress and take your hair down is all hard for me cause I have to do those things a certain way and wash my hands prior to just takeing my hair down but they don’t understand the at in the hospital so I just have to do it then go in my room and wash my hands and redo it all the way I’ve been doing it for 15 years so I can’t just stop all these things rite away but they see me as not cooperating when I tell them I have ocd and it’s just hard for me to do so I’m going there witout anything so they don’t have to touch my stuff which isn’t fair I wish I could just get help.

I've been following your posts recently and I don't have any good answers for you. My OCD started around the same age as you, so I've had it about 23 years. I didn't get to an OCD therapist until this last year, so I can relate to not getting proper treatment for a long time. I too spent 4 days in the mental hospital a couple years ago. It's a particularly tough time of years to feel miserable. I don't know exactly how to help you, but will offer support in any way I can.

I’m still waiting at the hospital I decided not to bring my clothes and stuff so I don’t have to go threw the stress of them touching everything my dressing rituals makes it hard for me to go to a hospital cause you have a roommate and I need to lay my clothes out on my bed and wash my hands and change standing by my bed so I can lay my clothes out and I need a clean slave to put my deodorant qtips and face pads but wit a roommate I have to do it all in the bathroom and laying my clothes out on the floor is hard and there’s nowere in the bathroom clean to set my deodorant qtips and face pads rinse them off seperatly then set them down witout them touching each other it’s aggravating and worse on me to have to do that and I have to change my clothes everyday like doing the ritual of changeing my clothes and if I don’t I’ll have to do it twice the next day watever days I don’t complete the clothes changeing ritual and just stay in the same clothes when I do change my clothes I gotta do it the amount of days I skipped and that’s been really hard cause my liveing situation has been crazy in the past I was homeless for awhile and wasn’t able to have a clean are to wash my hands and change my clothes so when we got a place I would be weeks behind and everday I’d change my clothes in this ritual till I did it for the amount of days I skipped it’s really hard and it sounds like changeing your clothes everyday is a normal thing and it is but I can’t skip a day so ppl who stay in there pajamas all weekend and get sick for a few days and lay in bed I’d still have to change my clothes I’ve been doing this for 15 years alot of wat I do is ritualized cause I do it everyday my ocd just makes a ritual out of it to kind of help me in a way get threw it but it kind of just ends up not really helping but wat am I suppose to do bout the rituals I’ve been doing for 15 years it’s just wat I do and it’s so hard explaining these things to ppl and the way it makes me feel when I can’t do these things I feel like everything lay been ripped from me I’m panicky and shocked it’s extremely hard but ppl just see it as being upset when it’s not it’s a disability.