I feel really overwhelmed rn. I feel like i’m gonna realize that i actually want to be a boy. there’s just this thought in the back of my mind saying that why would i get the intrusive thoughts (and kind of feel like i want them or i enjoy them which i don’t want to) if i don’t actually want to be a trans boy. i can’t get the feeling to go away i just feel like since i felt like i might want the intrusive thoughts of being a boy to come true, than i can’t move on and i MUST really want to be a boy. I’m trying to just not think about it but i feel like it’s so hard to not think about it and i don’t know how much longer i can hold off doing a compulsion and thinking about the intrusive thought and trying to figure it out.

hannah

155d ago

i’m like terrified that i’m gonna think about the intrusive thought and imagines being a boy and i’m gonna like it and then what do i do i don’t wanna be a boy i just want this to stop

Brian :)

155d ago

I’m a gay male who is having gender identity ocd . I know who I am and what I value . Ocd laches itself on the more I feel like myself and does everything in its power to take my values .

hannah

155d ago

It is really hard. I don’t know how to stop feeling like this because in my brain it’s saying that i must really want to be trans because why else would i have the intrusive thought.

Brian :)

155d ago

@hannah I’m self aware that it’s ocd, however it is indeed hard to remind ourselves .

Brian :)

155d ago

For long time I thgiht I was only one wit this type of ocd