Wow… I was looking at some old journal entries from this time last year and holy crap what a difference resilience and ERP have made. In my current every day struggle I forget about how bad rock bottom really was. It’s so easy to be hard on yourself but it’s very important to look back and pat yourself on the back for how far you’ve made it. No matter how small the improvements are, they I’ll begin to add up and after time the change in your quality of life will be extraordinary. Reading those entries really shocked me and remembered me how bad I was struggling. I remember sleeping 16 hours a day for months just to escape reality and calling the suicide hotline so many times and dropping from 160 lbs to 115 lbs. I remember waking up to my then fiancé crying because of how hopeless I looked. I remember her having to basically beg me to shower and get out of bed. I remember the first time I was able to drag myself to go on a walk around the park. It was a pivotal moment in my life. My fiancé was so proud of me. I am also so proud of myself for being here right now and putting so much effort every single day. And I’m so proud of everyone on here and how powerful you all are for looking to better your lives. That takes so much courage. If you are currently in the situation that I was at please don’t give up. It might takes weeks or even months but I promise you that if you stay resilient it will get better. My life has changed completely and I am truly happy again. I am in so love with wife. I struggle with intrusive thoughts here and there but I honestly feel like I beat ROCD and all the other themes I had. I understand how OCD works from all the therapy and ERP sessions. You can do this. It won’t happen over night but every battle won will lead you to conquering OCD. Sorry for the rant lol I just felt so overwhelmed. I hope my success story brings you a little bit of hope tonight if you’re having a tough time. This app was critical to my recovery and I couldn’t be more glad that I downloaded it out of desperation lol