I slammed my door earlier because I was upset. It was an immature thing to do and I regret it. My sister, who was in town for Christmas left after I slammed the door. I'm not upset with any of my family members, but rather how debilitating the OCD has been this holiday season. I reached out to my sister to apologize and I also apologized to my parents. I dont know what to do. I feel like I've ruined Christmas. It was a really shitty thing to do to slam my door and I feel bad that I've ruined our family get together.

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

Why do you feel guilty about slamming a door? Don’t beat yourself up everyone is allowed their occasional “immature” moment. You’re not responsible for your sisters feelings. I mean it’s good that you care but don’t beat yourself up. Ocd is doing that enough already

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

Ok dude you’re acting like you killed someone’s cat. If slamming a door would ruin your family’s Christmas then THEY’RE the ones with the issue, not you

canigetawitness

Date posted: 3y

I think I've ruined Christmas. My sister isn't back yet and my parents aren't talking to me. I've apologized and told them slamming my bedroom door was an immature thing to do and I'm sorry. I also told them I wasn't upset with any of them. But it feels like Christmas is over.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

@canigetawitness It's only ruined if you think it is. Do what you need to to make it festive for yourself.

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

@canigetawitness Your parents and your sister are the ones that are being immature. If they wanna act like that let them who cares. You had a bad moment but there being oversensitive and making it about them ignore them they’re the ones acting immature to help. They’re being brats You go about your Christmas to the best of your ability ignore their behavior and don’t let it effect that you

canigetawitness

Date posted: 3y

@Bookworm91 I dont know if they're being oversensitive though. It was a horrible thing to do. My parents just told me they're leaving the house and going somewhere else for Christmas. I'm trying not to let it get to me, but I really wanted to be with my family today.

canigetawitness

Date posted: 3y

There's no excuse for slamming the my bedroom door the way I did.

Alleycat94

Date posted: 3y

I notice a major flare up in my symptoms during holidays. Give yourself extra kindness during this time. It was very good of you to apologize to your family, and now you deserve to forgive yourself. Remember that to those whose burdens are greater, God supplies greater portions of grace. Remembering that gets me through hard times. Sending love and hugs your way

canigetawitness

Date posted: 3y

Thank you, this really helps. I was just hoping we could all be together on Christmas day. I didn't mean to run anyone off, but I guess I have.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

I've had a shouting performance yesterday. It happens. I don't like it. No one does. I try my best not to but OCD is so strong at convincing you you have to react.

canigetawitness

Date posted: 3y

I'm sorry you got into a shouting argument. Anxiety/OCD really does suck.

canigetawitness

Date posted: 3y

I'm having a break down. I dont know what to do. I didn't mean to ruin Christmas by slamming my door yesterday. I've apologized multiple times to my parents and my sister. I just wish we could have Christmas. I feel awful for ruining this.

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

You didn’t ruin Christmas! They did. Their reactions are much worse then your action. I’m sorry you feel bad but you’ve got to stop letting your family push you around. This is just a control tactic.

canigetawitness

Date posted: 3y

@Bookworm91 I did slam my bedroom door pretty hard. I wish I could take it all back. Thank you for your support. I'm trying to not let it get to me, but I feel awful.

giaparmer

Date posted: 3y

I know it’s been a few days just wanted to throw a coping thought at ya! I see that you are really bothered by the idea of ruining the holidays for your family, I believe this comes from a deep respect and desire for your families happiness. It makes sense that you would be bothered by slamming the door because you do not want to hurt your families feelings especially around the holidays! Your rumination over this issue is simply trying to tell you very loudly that you really really value being a good family member. When you find yourself ruminating in guilt place one hand over your heart take a deep breath and say out loud “this is really difficult for me, I struggle to meet my own expectations right now but I know that I am a person with good intentions in my heart. I am allowed to make mistakes” ❤️❤️

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