I slammed my door earlier because I was upset. It was an immature thing to do and I regret it. My sister, who was in town for Christmas left after I slammed the door. I'm not upset with any of my family members, but rather how debilitating the OCD has been this holiday season. I reached out to my sister to apologize and I also apologized to my parents. I dont know what to do. I feel like I've ruined Christmas. It was a really shitty thing to do to slam my door and I feel bad that I've ruined our family get together.

Why do you feel guilty about slamming a door? Don’t beat yourself up everyone is allowed their occasional “immature” moment. You’re not responsible for your sisters feelings. I mean it’s good that you care but don’t beat yourself up. Ocd is doing that enough already

Ok dude you’re acting like you killed someone’s cat. If slamming a door would ruin your family’s Christmas then THEY’RE the ones with the issue, not you

There's no excuse for slamming the my bedroom door the way I did.

I notice a major flare up in my symptoms during holidays. Give yourself extra kindness during this time. It was very good of you to apologize to your family, and now you deserve to forgive yourself. Remember that to those whose burdens are greater, God supplies greater portions of grace. Remembering that gets me through hard times. Sending love and hugs your way

I've had a shouting performance yesterday. It happens. I don't like it. No one does. I try my best not to but OCD is so strong at convincing you you have to react.

I'm having a break down. I dont know what to do. I didn't mean to ruin Christmas by slamming my door yesterday. I've apologized multiple times to my parents and my sister. I just wish we could have Christmas. I feel awful for ruining this.

I know it’s been a few days just wanted to throw a coping thought at ya! I see that you are really bothered by the idea of ruining the holidays for your family, I believe this comes from a deep respect and desire for your families happiness. It makes sense that you would be bothered by slamming the door because you do not want to hurt your families feelings especially around the holidays! Your rumination over this issue is simply trying to tell you very loudly that you really really value being a good family member. When you find yourself ruminating in guilt place one hand over your heart take a deep breath and say out loud “this is really difficult for me, I struggle to meet my own expectations right now but I know that I am a person with good intentions in my heart. I am allowed to make mistakes” ❤️❤️