incest ocd has picked on all my male family members and i’m still convinced it’s real. it’s hard because there are think i am attracted to in men (eg voice, gestures, humour etc) and when a male family member does those things or has those things, it feels like i’m attracted to it. and then i worry that, if they weren’t family members, would i confidently find such a thing attractive? would i find THEM attractive? it’s so scary and makes me feel ill and scared and alone. i love my family and hate that it picks on them. but more than anything i hate that it feels real and worry it truly is. the most recent example was my uncle who i just called. he has a deep voice and an american accent (i’m british) and i’m scared i’m attracted to it and therefore him.

do you really? i feel so alone and scared it’s real attraction right now. it’d be nice to know someone relates!

@garden I genuinely understand you, especially because I also struggle with SO-OCD and POCD. Sometimes the attraction feels overwhelming real and the most scared thing is that they come when I least expect. How about you? Just remember to sit with the uncertainty!

@milena_vl i think it’s scariest when it genuinely feels real. like sometimes with ocd i can be like pfft that’s just my brain trying to scare me. but when it feels real my stomach drops and i’m terrified

@garden I’m scared I’ll provide you reassurance, but just know that I know this and I see you. I genuinely see you!

@milena_vl thank you it does mean a lot 💛

that’s good! i’m glad it’s gotten better to deal with. i find that these are more feelings than thoughts? i hope they’re intrusive nonetheless and not true.

@garden I think that's such a common thing with OCD. Someone else literally wrote the exact same thing about feelings and thoughts in another thread. You can have thoughts or feelings or sensations or urges or anything with OCD. It's all part of it.