Rohan123
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Lms526Lms526
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I am 45. I started having intrusive thoughts at age 8. But I had no idea what I was experiencing wasn't normal. I thought everyone struggled the way I did. So I lived with undiagnosed untreated OCD for 37 years. I had done years of therapy but never made any progress. This past summer, I listened to a podcast (not mental health related) when a woman shared her story about living with OCD. I was shocked when I realized I could relate. So I started researching OCD and everything started making sense. So when I learned about ERP, I jumped right in. I realized I had a choice. I could keep doing my compulsions and stay stuck or I could try something different. I wasn't going to lose anymore of my life to OCD. I'm not going to lie. Doing ERP is one of the hardest things I have ever done. Its terrifying. But the benefits that come from doing it are so worth it. Only you can decide if you are ready to start treatment and take your life back. But just know that OCD will not go away on its own. The longer you go untreated the worse your OCD will get. ERP has been lifechanging for me. I am now in recovery.
Warrior25Warrior25
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I have a very similar story. I went to therapists and psychologists and they didn't help at all. Asking God for an answer on what was going on with me I found a video on YouTube about OCD and from there it's been a journey. Some days harder than others but like you said worth it. OCD has made me realize that I need to be compassionate with myself. I didn't understood that at first. I thought that it was something that I needed to fix and that I wished with all my heart to go away because I felt shame and guilt for having it. Now I realize that even when this thing is so unpredictable and hard it's been a tool to learn, grow and help others too. I've met amazing people with the same disease. OCD people are so sencible and insightful but most don't even know it. They are usually kind because they know the pain of being tormented in their own mind. Even when this thing came as a curse, I can say today that it's been used as a blessing. You are strong. Thanks for sharing.
Tyler DevineTyler Devine
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@herdel25 - Incredible words my friend!💪🏼 Stay with that mindset! God bless and good luck with your journey 🙏💯
Warrior25Warrior25
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I think you get to a point where you are fed up with the compulsions, the anxiety and fear itself. Maybe you aren't there yet. Which is ok. Is not something to feel guilty about it. Just remember, it is you who has to decide if you want to face your fears. Nobody can make that decision for you.
Tyler DevineTyler Devine
- Date posted
- 3y ago
If you haven’t read some of these other people’s advice/responses, I say you check em out! I am one of the advocates here at NOCD and I am so blown away by some of these people who reached out to you. I think it’s awesome that you are on here and willing to surrender. That’s a huge step! It’s all up from here my friend. Stay connected with this community. When I started my battle/journey with OCD, this stuff was not in existence. It made it that much harder to get better. ERP is one of the toughest things to do in any area of mental recovery. But on the flip side, with great struggle comes great strength. Start small, don’t expect immediate results, and be in it for the long haul. Continue to help others within the OCD community and continue to stay positive no matter what. God bless you and your journey. Ty D
Rohan123Rohan123
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Thank you for this!
InaPanicInaPanic
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Yeah Years and Years of Suffering , I’ve HOCD, POCD,Harm OCD, Suicidal OCD, now Existentual OCD where I can’t stop thinking about death and after life
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viee
- Date posted
- 24w ago
i cannot do ERP
i don’t think i can, i can’t stomach the possibility of these things, or maybe i can (because they might be true and deep down i know that) and just don’t want to and want to pretend it isn’t there. i can’t do ERP, i just want to pretend it isnt there and won’t happen to clarify, i know i have to do ERP, i know it’s necessary; i don’t need to be told this, this is just how i am feeling currently
Anxiousaddie
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 18w ago
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Jennifer Dal...
- User type
- Therapist
- Date posted
- 9w ago
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