- Username
- Ocdislame
- Date posted
- 2y ago
I can't offer much helpful advice with regards to restoring faith...I'm unaffiliated...but if you're struggling with doubts right now and need some relief, I do know it's possible to release anxiety in a way that doesn't necessarily demand faith. The panic that OCD causes is not our fault - it happens because of factors beyond our control. Recognizing that allows us to accept that we are not responsible for egodystonic thoughts and feelings. We have no obligations to them, other than to acknowledge them and move forward.
Well said friend
Thank you!
You are not alone! I have a similar problem with a young family. I finally have everything I ever wanted and suddenly my OCD is overwhelming. We have to just take it one day at a time and work through ERP even though it sucks. You can get your life back.
My faith increased alot when this began, I was praying everyday and extra then it slowly faded and alot of it is sadly gone and Im afraid i'll lose more if my thoughts do end up coming true
Im sorry youre struggling
Yeah this is really tough to deal with. But I guess the whole faith thing has been a struggle for some time now, It’s only been exasperated by the OCD
Bro I totally feel this. I don’t understand all of this and why God as allowed this at all. I got this at the age of 36 and it caught me off guard along with other things that happened the year I got ocd. My faith was strong in the beginning as well but when I wasn’t healed like I thought I would be which is this whole thing to go away then I started to question and my faith as been a mustard seed lately. Many Christian’s don’t get it and think just give it to Jesus but honestly they don’t know that doesn’t always work how we think it should. I feel your pain. I still wonder what to make of all of this and how God uses it. Maybe medication is something you may need to get you over the hump and don’t let anyone make you feel less of a Christian for having to use mental health medication cause God uses doctors all the time. I know we feel deflated now with all of this and I’m so sorry this hs happened to you. I’m praying for you brother and all of us.
I’ve been having throuble with faith for some time. Then I had an unrelated medical issue in May. I thought it was God trying to bring me back, because I was doing a lot of stuff I shouldn’t have. Was on adhd meds, anxiety meds, smoking weed and drinking. Then I got gastritis and lost 32 lbs. o was thinking it was Gods way of saving my life so I could be there for my son, because I basically had to stop everything. Then the ocd hit a few months later. I’ve been asking God for a sign, something to help me hold on. I’ve even been praying that he doesn’t let me go, but I’ve yet to have anything happen. It’s pretty traumatizing you go your whole life believing in something and then suddenly have it pulled out from under you. That in addition to the OCD I question why life is worth living. Don’t worry, I’m not actually suicidal, but I’ve thought about it. Previously I just loved my life, and now I just question what it’s all for
@Ocdislame Bro everything you’ve explained I’ve had similar experience. Bro my wife tried to commit suicide in September 2019, I found her body it was traumatizing, then I smoked weed i feb 2020 cause I was stressed and ended up confessing some of my sins to my wife and she confessed hers to me, that weed experience was bad for me that same night I started having harm thoughts towards my wife and it scared the shit out of me, then may 2020 I had a nightmare about stabbing my wife and that shit wrecked me and bam harm ocd was born with that night of the night I smoked weed. I know it’s hard my brother. I know God loves you brother even when we don’t feel it. Our feelings change so much it’s crazy that’s for sure lol. The trauma I faced brought on ocd. I know it’s scary, I questioned to why this happened is life worth it, I loved my life so much before all this shit. I told the lord I would give up everything to not have this. My wife reminded me it’s easy to have faith when everything goes our way and it’s through trials that faith is tested. I wasn’t raised in church came to Christ in my early 30s. I know you don’t wanna some run of the mill answer but I do know God loves us. I identify with you so much bro cling to his goodness. I remind myself how can I be an example to my son when life is only easy. Get into therapy erp specifically. It helps bro. Your brain is just wired different my man. If you wanna email me I’d be more than willing just let me know.
@Ocdislame I’m truly sorry that you have to deal with this illness. I wish there was more I could do besides offer words of encouragement and love.
I’m sorry it’s hard it feels hard . But keep pressing don’t give up
Have you tried reaching to a pastor
Brother did you know Martin Luther, the father of the reformation suffered from Ocd and depression? I have a book on it and so did John Bunyan who wrote the pilgrims progress. You are in good company my brother even in what seems like a hopeless situation.
Thank you. Yeah I had heard that before. I just hope this passes eventually
@Ocdislame It might it might not bro. Get into therapy man it will help you!
I agree. I’m atheist now and sometimes it feels pointless and like I have no one taking care of me.
I’m thankful I have my wife and son. But the OCD along with issues with my faith also make things seem so pointless.
Would it be helpful to try praying (not too much) and see if your anxiety is relieved?
I’ve done that. Prayers never really seem to get answered. Not in a way that I know it is. Sure sometimes I’ll feel better, but so do most people
Always here if you need to talk friend
Erp therapy does help to leasen the blow of these thoughts as well
I don’t know if I’m ever going to get better, if I’m ever going to feel good, if I’m ever going to be able to carry on with this 10 years down the road. It’s torture with no exit, for me recently. Every time I bring up my OCD around family, they get annoyed. I can’t go to friends because it has only been of temporary relief. I am literally tearing up as I write this. I’m afraid I’m so close to convincing myself of the horrible lies my OCD has been telling me. I just can’t, I don’t know if there’s anyone or thing that can make me feel better. It’s been like lifting gigantic boulder up a steep mountain the entire day—and I could be crushed by it if not careful. If there is a god, why must he put me through this? I have already been through some many enough hard times in life, this OCD has only magnified any insecurities, anxieties, feeling of loneliness, self hate, and negative emotions.
If you believe in God or a higher power, how do you incorporate God or how do you see God in all of this OCD nonsense? My faith has held me steady for a long time in the past, but since I went down the rabbit hole a few weeks ago, I’m now either doubting God cares or am convinced this anxiety and panic is bc I’ve done something to deserve it. Is this just another obsessive theme and reasoning?
I feel doomed. I don’t know if God is real. The ocd shows me no other option that He isn’t. I read my Bible every single day as a routine not a compulsion. I just don’t understand why it won’t change. It causes me to question all things in existence to the point of making me feel like this isn’t just ocd it’s schizophrenia which is then going to cause me to never know the truth or my family or why I am here again. The Bible explains why we’re here but my brain says it’s not enough. This world has been flipped upside down to me since 2020. I am exhausted from all this misinformation we have now. It breaks my heart. I just want the Lord to help me. I don’t want to question who He is and I don’t want to believe what my mind is saying but it feels like I have no hope if I cannot distinguish between what is false and true. I just don’t understand how this could even remotely be a good thing but God says He will finish a good work that He is started. I just find it so like. Untrue. Now. Like. I don’t see Him 😭😭😭. And day 7 of dreary weather. It’s making me so angry today. I know that’s the anxiety but I’m just fed up. I’m tired of the lies feeling so real to my mind that my reality gets distorted.
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