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Well, ocd is the doubting desease. I think I've said enough, i don't want to reassure you.
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- 3y
That seems to be something I forget a lot. Thank you.
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- 3y
❤️❤️ you are not alone friend. Your disgust and stress over the images shows your true feelings and your real character. You’re not sitting there having fantasies. Even if you were, they’re still just thoughts, and those are private to you and have the option of assigning meaning to them or not. You’re allowed to think about whatever the hell you want! This isn’t 1984 with the thought police and you can’t commit a thought crime. What matters is how you act and what you actually do, how you treat people, how you impact the world. I don’t care if you think about killing everyone every day if you’re a good person who treats everyone with decency and respect. Thoughts and feelings and human minds are weird.
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- 3y
It scares me thinking there could be telepaths. One day someone is gonna enter my brain and I’m gonna be sitting in there throwing rotten eggs at like a corpse or something (I dunno, first think that popped in my head). Thank you for your input. It makes me feel a bit better knowing I’m not alone.
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- 3y
@Dia Rancid Oh my god I used to police my thoughts SO MUCH, especially as a kid, because I was so afraid of the possibility that someone around me was a telepath. Swriously one of the most draining things you can do 😮💨 Definitely wasn’t helpful growing up with Christian religion, either. I was told during my whole childhood that when I croaked god was going to go through every single second of my life with me and scold me for the bad things I did and thought. And then they tell you that god is just sitting there everywhere listening to your thoughts and stuff. Fricken Christianity definitely helped give me ocd. Now as an adult I don’t believe in god or anything at all and it’s such a relief. It was hard when I was getting to that point though 💀 I kept telling myself stuff like “well if someone actually does end up reading my thoughts they’re just going to know everything about every animal on earth. Also I’m sure they’ve heard much, much worse because people are evil and insane so let them have to see my nasty intrusive thoughts with me” lol
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- 16w
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