“I go before you always” -God ✝️

I am not a counselor but someone that has gone thru ERP thru NOCD. I’ve suffered from religious OCD so if you would like to talk about it I’m here!

@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Please . I would so gladly appreciate that .

@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. I grew up in a Chrsitian home . I met my wife in 2018 and wanted to rededicate my life to God because I wanted a prosperous relationship ! I then went through a season of doubt . I doubted everything . I then got saved in 2019 because I believe when I was younger I wasn’t serious about it . I was still in doubt in 2019 while getting saved , but I am hoping that God saved me anyway . Fast forward to January of 2021 , I learned about the unpardonable sin . This really terrified me . I became so fearful If I’ve ever committed it , or will commit it . I am always hyper fixated on that idea . I was reading scripture one time and called the Lord the “L” word in my head because I misunderstood the scripture. To my defense , I also was reading scripture in a different version . I believe it was the NLT version . My mentor advised me to stay with the KJV or NKJV because things are much more precise . I then looked up many different forms of blasphemous thoughts because I was convinced that I did it . Doing research for assurance only made matters worse . I retained so much blasphemous thoughts along the way . Every day I’m rebuking the thought . I’m messing up while rebuking the thoughts . My mind is flooded whenever I’m doing anything . I fear that I’m not even saved . I’ve allowed confusion , doubt and fear to beat me up for so long . The flesh has became weak and I’ve engaged in lustful behaviors . I willlingly sinned against God . I did ask for forgiveness although I may mess up again . I’m truly bothered and ferried . If you have an relatable experience , I’m willing to listen . Thanks for any encouragement!

@Junior96! First off, God better understands what you are going thru than you do. He is all knowing so he knows exactly what you are struggling with. God hears all your prayers and there’s no special rules you need to follow. God understands you love him and that you have OCD. Trust me God knows!

@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. You’re absolutely right . I truly appreciate that truth . It has been a lot for me . Taking advice is so much easier said than done .

@Junior96! I know how hard it can be. Be kind to yourself and your mind! I’ll pray for you!

@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Thank you . Lastly, have you dealt with doubting salvation ?

@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. It’s funny because I asked God to forgive me and remind me how much he loves me . I got on the app and I saw your post . I truly believe that God wanted me to see that . Also , may you refer your counselor ? Thanks

@Junior96! I have not but know that God knows how much you love him. You don’t need to do compulsions to prove that. God would rather you live your life and serve him that way

@Junior96! God definitely wanted you to see that! That’s awesome! My counselor was from Ohio but I actually worked with another person who has OCD that helped me realize all this.

@Junior96! I struggle with blasphemous thoughts and thoughts that I don’t like God, but God knows what’s truly in my heart and what I am dealing with.

@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. You’re right ! I do love God although my behavior and conduct doesn’t always align . I too deal with blasphemous thoughts . Learning to live with what’s in my mind is a huge adjustment. Thanks for your encouragement. I’ll be praying for you too !

@Junior96! Thank you! Remember you are not perfect! God loves you!

@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. I’ve been having thoughts that say “ I don’t want to say it the way the thought say, but it’s about sell souls and making deals with evil supernatural beings” I don’t want to do it tho. Can u suggest a good ERP method for this.

@Rohan kulkarni I dealt with selling my soul thoughts too. But your soul belongs to God, you can’t sell it. That’s a myth.

@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. I know that sir, but how did u get it under control and stoped them?

@Rohan kulkarni Disregard the thought whenever it comes in