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- 3y
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- 3y
It's like an abusive person and I've already had enough of them in my life. It's really funny how ocd turned even my own self into someone that abuses me. This brings me to the realization that all this abuse eventually molded me into a person that actually hates herself. Sometimes i wish we could control our whole phyche via some sort of control panel.
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- 3y
Yes! It really is! I remember telling my councellor back in 2020 "I really like you, but I know at some point I will start 'deconstructing' you and only looking at your flaws and will only think negative things" Little did I know that was OCD... Anything I value, or try to, gets ruined by endless doubts. It's so abusive, it gaslights you by making you think and feel things you disagree with. It will twist everything as negatively as possible.
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- 3y
@AnonOCDsufferer yup
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- 24w
Don't panic, you're still the same girl, your OC gives you a lot of intrusive thoughts that aren't you and that disgust you and scare you and that you don't want and that you don't think are true, and your OC gives you the false feelings.Also, don't forget that whatever comes to mind, whatever intrusive thoughts you have and whatever you feel, is all yours.
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- 19w
When I was a child, before I knew this was OCD, I struggled with constant "magical thinking" compulsions (don't step on the crack or mom's back will actually break, etc). When I later learned this was OCD, it almost immediately solved it. Any time I got a magical thought, I would say to myself "that's just an OCD thought. ignore it." and it just stopped coming! Like seriously it fixed the magical thinking stuff forever. But of course the OCD has resurfaced in other ways. So naturally, I've tried to use the same strategy since I had so much success with it previously. But I wonder sometimes if telling myself "that's just OCD" is almost functioning as a reassurance compulsion? I hate how meta this gets. For example, I have ROCD that comes and goes. So sometimes I'll get a thought like "what if i'm still in love with my ex?" and then I'll tell myself "that's obviously just an ROCD thought" and will feel relief, almost like reassurance. But it comes back. So is telling myself that it's OCD a reassurance compulsion ?? It's just so weird because it worked so perfectly as a kid with the magical thinking thing.
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