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- 3y
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- 3y
As the person you spoke with said, you have to accept that it might or might not be pee.
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- 20w
So Iām 16 years old, currently going through my sophomore year of highschool. Iāve recently quit nicotine and weed after chronic use for about 4 years (has affected my development extremely). I quit because I wanted a better life for myself because I knew that I was using nicotine and weed for short term happiness and long term made me very depressed about this life. I was also experiencing trouble concentrating on simple tasks and what I wanted to do currently in my life. Which was learning about life and having more knowledge about life in general so i could feel more comfortable and happy in the future. So I quit nicotine I thought I was going to be able to overcome it and be more comfortable with myself knowing that Iām not in a constant loop of short term happiness, long term making me less happy overall. Although I have quit nicotine and havenāt touched it in about 3 weeks I expected to have some major withdrawals because Iām still in adolescence and used nicotine about everyday for 4 years. Sorry Iām rambling about this but through those years of always suppressing my anxiety with nicotine when anything came up that triggered it. I started noticing that on vacation in very stressful moments like at the airport and there were people around me when using the bathroom I felt as though it was nearly impossible to go but after sometime I eventually went and shrugged it off. Now that Iāve quit though Iām my 4th week itās almost like my brain really latched onto that fear of not being able to go around people publicly (paruresis shy bladder syndrome) and thatās also what addiction does to you Iāve acknowledged. But when I started coming home from school I started thinking about not being able to pee more and more to the point i havenāt been able to stop thinking about it since which now every time i feel a slight trigger of having to use the bathroom i start obsessing over it like everything I would try and do that i usually do my brain would draw me away from it and go back to the fear of not being able to go which created a lot of anxiety and thoughts like āwould if im not able to stop goingā which made me think about it more and more I would just wake up with that thought in my head each day to the point where i was really thinking about killing my self because I thought i would have such a better life without nicotine and weed but ultimately made me feel like i was going crazy and I really wanted to go back to vaping and weed but i knew that this was the cycle of addiction and that i may have a more underlying problem here i need to overcome somatic ocd. I havenāt been diagnosed with it yet and I know a lot of people go through a cycle of self diagnosing. But as Iāve slowly started to mentally figure out ways to get through this obsession over peeing and fight it, itās like my brain is now trying to look for a new bodily sensation to obsess over. My breathing. I noticed this as well while using that sometimes I would think about my breathing a little bit to much for example saying to myself am I breathing right should I breath this certain way would if I canāt stop thinking about it. But as I was thinking about that I just hit my vape talked to my brother about it and just slept it off. Now that I donāt have a vape Iāve had to go through these expierences but with it feeling more real and not really having something to run to, to suppress like my vape. Iām writing this today as I feel better to myself talking about it and opening up about it as Iām trying to not respond to this fear with anxiety and go throughout my days ignoring these obsessive thoughts leading to extreme anxiety that I donāt have anything to suppress it with anymore besides my own mental. Maybe someone here will have some more knowledge about it than I do and can give me some advice to try to keep me more motivated to deal with this ocd I feel as though Iām having so I donāt end up in a dark place. Thank you.
- Date posted
- 19w
Hey. So Iāve been experiencing a lot of anxiety with my bladder. Every time I urinate I feel the need to completely empty my bladder and it has to feel ājust rightā so Iāll sit on the toilet for more than 10 min straining every last drop out. And then on the other hand Iāll hold in my pee for a long time because I dread going to the bathroom knowing Iāll take a long time. Iāve also noticed Iām getting bloated more often and this in turn makes it harder to get the rest of my pee out. Iām worried that Iām causing health issues with my bladder so Iām thinking of seeking medical advice. Has anyone else had similar issues?
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- 18w
This is a repost, only because the last post had no responses lol. Please if you have any advice share. Iāve been trying hard to sit with the feeling of anxiety. Actually thatās the problem, recently Iāve been trying to sit with the thought (and Iām able to for a few hours or until the next morning) and then my anxiety comes back so strong and itās like I need to clean everything off. I see images of gross laundry getting on everything or my hand and then I need to clean everything off to un contaminate it. Sometimes the thought happens later at night so I just sleep through and the next morning I will wake up with intense anxiety about contamination. That happened yesterday and I had to clean everything off and since then Iāve been traumatized so Iāve been doing compulsions like avoiding the bathroom and being around people so I know I couldnāt have done anything wrong. Actually recently my biggest compulsion has been recording every time I get up to go eat, etc so that I know I couldnāt have done anything. Any advice or help???
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