- Username
- Sizmix
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Yeah I get afraid of bodily fluids
Yes. I could tell you my latest one, which I handled pretty well, but it could be triggering.
Fear of blood tends to leave the fear of flesh... every time s stranger touches me or family ect
I got over this theme by accepting the fact you’re going to be touching every type of human and animal bodily fluid no matter where you go or what you do. It’s impossible to do anything about it, so you either let it go or have OCD ruin your life.
I have contamination ocd wit stuff that my ocd makes me feel are contaminates like deodorant laundry detergent my face pads hair products and alot of other stuff they can’t touch anything they need to be cleaned separately and then set in it’s clean space not touching anything they all just leave a sensation on my hand that makes me feel like I need to wash my hands it’s like I can see the contamination if they touch other objects but I deal wit it and keep things seperate and avoid bringing things into my house and haveing certain products but I recently moved into an apartment I was here for 7 days and a pest control guy came in and sprayed majority of the carpets wit bug spray this was the cleanest place I’ve ever lived and it had been freshly painted and they put in brand new really nice carpet this place was like new I was so excited my anxiety was down my ocd was down I just came in and put stuff up usually I’d have to spend days cleaning and trying to find a place for everything but I had so much relief once I saw this place plenty of counter and cabinet space huge liveing room and balcony brand new windows and blinds 2 huge closets in the liveing room bathroom shelving big bathroom wit big nice tiles no nasty discolored caulk and the sink was a newer clean cabinet sink huge bedroom wit 2 closets 1 regular 1 pretty big it’s literally amazing I’ve never been able to just move in somewere in along time I’ve never been able to put stuff under the bathroom sink cabinet but cause the entire place was nice and clean I felt at ease and the bottom of the bathroom sink was clean so I put stuff under it I wasn’t cleaning my stuff and the apartment over and over for days I literally spent the entire 7 days doing nothing but enjoying the apartment we didn’t even rush to get our stuff we just relaxed and I felt like I was breathing for the first time but then he sprayed majority of our carpets so now the carpets are contaminated then maybe some spray got on walls and outlets I shampooed and scrubbed the walls and outlets I panicked it’s everywere you can chose wat you bring into your home and we’re you spray it and set stuff but when he came in spraying everywere it was to much at once I’m already struggling I’m already sick and he did that literally think bout 1 thing you can’t touch and that’s a contaminate and imagine it being spread round your entire apartment you couldn’t avoid your own home everyrhing contaminated I had 7 days in years of a clean big house for it to be ruined and I’m trying really hard but it was to much at once maybe doing slowly exposure to it but this was like takeing that 1 ocd thing your doing erp wit and just ripping it away you’d panick so I feel like death I’m on ssi for my ocd I live in Tennessee and have Medicaid there’s no help in my state for ocd like erp and professionals for ocd so I’m screwed I’ve been calling everywere for 3 weeks I’ve not even left my house not finished moveing barely been eating my ears ring non stop and I’m scared those 7 days are fadeing everyday I want to feel that again that peace years of suffering wit ocd and in life 533 dollars a month doesn’t give you the best life so bug infested dirty drug addicts everywere is the places I’ve had to live this was my peace and it’s gone I want to feel that peace 1 more time and I could leave this world noing that I felt that 1 more time.
same it feels like i can feel the dirtiness on my hand and it's like a tingly feeling
I’m to the point where the OCD is loud about with what I could have come in contact, but after years, I don’t let it stop me. I think different jobs in cleaning, babysitting, dog-loving, and probably also in sculpting and other art making have helped me have to face my contamination OCD. There are still some things that trigger me harder, but most days it’s just an unwanted thought that I conquer.
Contamination ocd is awful. I have a deep fear of sperm being everywhere! I’m so so so so scared and terrified that I’ll touch something/someone with sperm on it/them and then masterbate/finger myself or wipe after using the bathroom and get pregnant. I’m terrified to touch anything in stores, doctor offices, ect because of that very reason. I’m terrified to touch anywhere near my vagina, terrified I’ll have sperm on my hands from touching something and get pregnant I feel like giving up. I can’t be happy anymore because of this.
I have been struggling with OCD for as long as I can remember and I have lost count of how many therapists I have been to. But the main one that has really stuck with me is contamination OCD. but it branches off like if there is a red smudge on paper or somewhere I’ll automatically think it’s blood and have immediate anxiety. But the OCD fear that I have allowed to control my life is the fear of getting pregnant from someone not washing their hands after going to the bathroom or if they did (who knows what) and didn’t wash their hands or shower, or even if they touch their phone (since nowadays we all have ours connected to us at all times)or something before washing their hands and then the sperm could of transferred onto that or anything and then they touch something that I then touch and then if I got pregnant (or even the thought of those “germs/sperm” being on my body at all) my boyfriend would breakup with me and we have been together for over 5 years and I love him with my whole heart so my fear is loosing him. Now I know it’s pretty much impossible to get pregnant like that but my OCD brain is saying well what if it happens to you and your the first person ever. So I literally don’t touch anything after anyone or at least directly without washing my hands right after. I was my hands probably at least 50 times a day and use Lysol wipes on EVERYTHING! I have sanitized my phone 3 times already today. I am in therapy but I feel like talking to others who also suffer and can relate helps too I know this is a strange OCD fear, I guess I’m wondering if anyone has ever had this fear as well?
Ever since the pandemic I have had this fear of germs. However this fear then turned into being scared of sperm. Germs were not the problem anymore. For the past two years I have been battling with my mind trying to convince myself that it’s impossible to get pregnant from surfaces, from the toilet, from chairs in public. I have this irrational fear that I might somehow get sperm on me and then that will somehow get onto my underwear and then I get pregnant which Ofcourse will be a cryptic pregnancy, so I won’t know until I am actually giving birth. Unfortunately, I have these thoughts about every male I come into contact with, whether that is brushing up against them on the bus, or the train or them being the cashier at the supermarket. I can spend hours cleaning my phone and my glasses just in case. However when I’m actually having intercourse, the fear of getting pregnant doesn’t even cross my mind and doesn’t worry me even a little bit as I’m on contraception. But what worries me is if I touch a door handle which was dirty with sperm and then getting pregnant by a complete stranger. Does anyone else have this type of OCD?
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