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Oh yes indeed! All the time. It seems so real and because the same thought is constantly in your head you think it must be real as it seems so vivid all the time....but it can switch ever so slightly like all of my obsessions have. I will start off worrying if this or that happened in a certain way then it will change ever so slightly saying well did this happen instead! It confuses me so much because if it had happened in the first place there is No way it would change ever so slightly! Just a horrible illness it is. Hope you are Ok x
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- 6y
Exactly!! That is OCD for you. It is a very horrible twisted disorder.
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- 6y
This is exactly what I'm going through. I had an overnight stay with work colleagues and I woke up thinking I'd cheated on my partner. I have ruminated for months now and its changed I.e thinking i cheated in the nightclub, then thinking I'd cheated in the hotel room, the person changed etc
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- 6y
you would like to think someone would remember cheating...alcohol or not
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There's no way you can have 100% certainty. You have to live your life (as hard as it may be), and pretend there's nothing to worry about. If you're ever confronted on this false memory and told it was real - then you can react/deal with it. You might feel like you're living a lie, but if you want to be happy you have no choice. I have this very type of OCD and it's hell, but you can do it - we all can.
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- 6y
I know you can never be 100% certain but when you think of things logically vs not logical, sometimes the thoughts just seem plain stupid. Of course this doesn't matter because OCD will always cause doubt. Just with me, my theme is always the worst case scenario, and that scenario changes the more I think about it.
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- 24w
Does anyone else’s false memory intrusive thoughts of what could have happened feel very, very real?
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- 24w
So. I was in a traumatic relationship. for a long time. it was filled with gaslighting, manipulation, abuse, cheating ect. I would OBSESS over finding out where they were, what they were doing, who they were talking too. but I couldn’t leave. I tried so hard but I never could. they would call me names, physically hurt me, throw things, break things. because I would question them all the time. but I just couldn’t leave. no matter what I knew. they would manipulate me. I fell for their childhood trauma. it’s like I lost all logic. but I also feel like I have a pretty good memory with memories. not all the way, but remembering a lot of the traumatic things. especially now that I’m no longer with them. I keep remembering things that’s happened. even from my childhood. one time way before I even started dating this person, I had an intrusive thought about a friend of mine. that was with me. and I freaked out. I thought I had acted on the intrusive thought the next day. I asked my friend for confirmation but they said nothing happened. but the memories about it feel SO REAL. so VIVID. but they swore that nothing happened and they had no idea what I was talking about. I’ve struggled with intrusive thoughts for my whole life. so fast forward to now, that ‘false memory’ from my friend randomly popped up and I started obsessing about it, and my childhood ‘memories’ that have popped up. and then I was reading an article of someone doing something horrible, and then it sounded ‘familiar’ and so then I’ve created this whole memory of me doing something similar to the article involving my partner doing it also. the memory keeps adding new things and conversations around it. when it involves an actual real memory. but it’s like it’s been twisted from what I remembered before. I also suffer from bad anxiety. I’ve stalked pictures. my search history to figure out what I was doing that say when the real event happened. and I’ve found some things but I can’t look through my texts because I got a new phone. it has been hounding me for months. MONTHS. trying to figure out if this new ‘memory’ is real or not. if it’s been fabricated by an intrusive thought from reading the article and thinking ‘what if’ or if it actually happened and because I’m no longer in this relationship it’s a ‘repressed memory’ but the thing is I have horrible horrible anxiety and I don’t think I could have gone this long knowingly that that happened without remembering it until now. because I remember a lot of the horrible things that they did. this ‘memory’ is fuzzy, but it brings me horrible anxiety when I think of it, like I feel like it happened. but I also feel like it didn’t happen. because I know I would never do anything like that. but WHAT IF I DID, because I was manipulated. idk. is this a false memory. I really need help. because it’s been debilitating. that relationship was really traumatic. and I got manipulated into a lot of things. but I wouldn’t have just went forward knowing that that happened??? there’s no way I could have just forgotten it. because before when I would think about that night it was different, until now. but what if I just made myself forget what truly happened?? I’m a pretty self aware individual, but somehow that relationship really REALLY put me into a trance somehow where I allowed things that I have no idea how I would even allow because before I met that person I would have never allowed someone to cheat on my constantly or talk to me the way they did. or allow abuse. like I don’t understand it.
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- 23w
When false memories have popped up for you guys, did they feel real straight away like pop up like a memory but you’re still doubting whether they’re real?
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