graciepops17
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- 3y
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 3y
It is soul destroying I’m with you
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
Have you experienced what I have? 👆🏻 Cause I’m literally a mess 🥺
graciepops17graciepops17
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It’s awful, so sorry you are going through this too
graciepops17graciepops17
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Because*
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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I know exactly what you’re going through. I wouldn’t wish this OCD on anyone. I mean don’t get me wrong sometimes I get mad and I wish OCD in general on some people just so they know what it’s like but not this one although I’ll be honest I’m really glad I don’t have POCD that’s the only thing I think is worse than SOCD. Right now I said like I’m I’m sorry I just need someone to talk to who understands where I’m coming from because no one‘s answering me. Like just now I said I am with a huge smile but I’m not attracted women and I feel horrible and feel strange like I have to tell myself and I can’t stop thinking of female body parts like I want to combine them with males and I don’t and I keep smiling like I mean otherwise so I don’t know if it’s comforting but at least no you’re not the only one going through this
graciepops17graciepops17
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I completely get what you mean someone’s when I get intrusive images and I don’t feel the anxiety I think that means it’s true.
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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@Bookworm91 I feel like a burden to people I’m just desperate. I just said I do I’ll happily but I don’t have a same-sex orientation and now I feel like I’m being choked from within if that makes sense. It’s the way I say things now I’m so used to the thoughts they still like disturb me but it’s the way I said it and I said I just I acted so perky saying do but I don’t have a same-sex orientation I have sexual orientation OCD but why am I acting so happy and eager to say I have seems like I don’t have it I’m scared I’ve been living a lie I don’t have a same sex orientation all I meant to say was that I have sex orientation OCD that’s all I meant to say so why would I say I do when I don’t have a same sex orientation and now I’m acting like guys in general are gross when they’re not and I don’t wanna be here anymore
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geodrimilis
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- 22w
Hocd is literally a clown in my head.
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Juris
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It’s so scary because it feels real
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