NickD
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NickDNickD
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- 3y
Not to mention just from how much her YouTube videos have helped me. I didn’t even have a session with her yet
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
Is there anyway you could help me with the post I made? I noticed you have the same theme as I do and I need help. I posted it about a minute ago I was just scared of Home smiling and feeling weird and I don’t want to change
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
** how I’m smiling
NickDNickD
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- 3y
You need know that it’s trying to get you to ruminate. That is the goal of this monster. If we smile then we smile. Watch Ali Greymond
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
@NickD You don’t get it I feel like crying. I saw a funko of the new Batman and I kept focusing on cat woman and saying I like her and I don’t like her but I kept saying that and I just now send my head I love her tits and I don’t I don’t wanna be here anymore I’ve never felt like that before and he his funko was what got me happy initially and now I’m saying I know I don’t love her tits I don’t understand what’s going on I’m scared
NickDNickD
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- 3y
@Bookworm91 Please look up Ali Greymond on YouTube and you will understand. Reach out to a therapist or talk to somebody who you care about. It’s not easy but if you do the work you will get better! Try to be uncertain. Ocd wants certainty that’s not even possible!
NickDNickD
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- 3y
@Bookworm91 You’re not alone! We’re all dealing with this. These thoughts are a symptom of ocd!
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
@NickD I was before! At least waaay more then this! This isn’t fair! So I looked the actress up and of course she’s one of those people that just likes to dress and naked basically and I just like what the fuck ever right? And I don’t know if this served as an ERP but I was like oh definitely don’t like her body parts and let’s face it other than size they are all the same and I’m like oh I guess I really don’t like it but now I’m sitting here crying and I can’t move. I’ve heard of her I’ve seen her on YouTube she seems nice Ali I mean why am I crying it when I didn’t like what I was looking at. Thank you for responding though only one other person is responding about it’s just I keep saying why didn’t I don’t want to like it and I didn’t like it but I feel weird looking at them like this is so not my thing and yet how do I go back to enjoying Batman because I don’t I think he’s fucking awesome the actor in the character and I am very interested in him so it’s like how do I get that back
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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- 3y
@NickD Sorry I wasn’t trying to interrupt. For whatever reason my app isn’t showing my notifications and there’s some kind of delay on my end at least
NickDNickD
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- 3y
@Bookworm91 Listen you need to know that it’s playing tricks on you! What you’re looking for is reassurance and this only powers up the thoughts and makes it worst! Just say maybe maybe not and try to pretend like it’s an annoying neighbor yelling random things at you. Detach yourself from the thoughts. Please look her up and the videos will help calm you down
Bookworm91Bookworm91
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@Bookworm91 The worst thing is that it also takes away what you enjoy. I make faces like I don’t but I love my guys just I feel bad for saying especially now that he’s gotten in good shape that’s not the point I hate making a face I’ve loved his chest even when he was not in great shape but now I make faces over his chest like or like guy just in general like that and I keep make a face I don’t want fat deposits I don’t want women I want muscle and I can’t stop making a face I get it it’s not gross guys are not cross his chest is not gross Sorry my upstairs neighbors fucking psycho and kept me up till three in the morning and I only got like four hours of sleep
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