Literally just had my other therapist, a non ocd-therapist, tell me about the dangers of doing an exposure my actual ocd therapist and I came up with, which was meant to be totally harmless and safe and with people around me to do it. She also mentioned other cases of OTHER atrocities that she could tie to my current theme and fears and put that into my head, so now I’m even MORE scared and nervous to try my exposure 😭😭😑 on one instance it’s my fault for sharing it with the other therapist but on the hand it’s like, “stop talking you’re ruining my exposure” she even said she didn’t know what ERP was or much about OCD and she might’ve just ruined it for me now.

Right, that’s the last time I do that, I might even can the other therapist. And you’re right, I’m going to persevere and still proceed with the exposure, because I need to do it, and I’ve got someone else helping me with it too so it’s controlled and no one is at risk of anything.

@Recoverer You got this!

Sorry you had that experience

@MCT She also told me not to censor my thoughts earlier on before saying that too 😅 like cmon now. But I’m still gonna do the exposure, despite the added anxiety on top of my mountain of anxiety lol.

@Recoverer Sure, that’s why we go to specialists!

@MCT I sure hope I don’t develop a new theme because of my other therapist though, ugh

Possibly, but idk if I could ever arrange that between all 3 of us. And since both specialize in different fields and come from different backgrounds, I’m not sure there’d be much seeing eye-to-eye

@Recoverer I would seriously consider ditching the non OCD therapist. I'm sure she has good intentions, but it sounds like she is doing more harm than good.

@Recoverer I meant, they talk without you present. It’s not about seeing Eye 2 Eye, it’s about making the non-OCD therapist understand a little better so you can get out of her whatever non-OCD treatment you are there for.

@Lms526 Yeah I understand why she said what she said because she has different backgrounds and experiences so if I mention anything that has to do with harm-ocd related fears and she also doesn’t know much about erp or ocd, I’m not surprised she freaked out. It is my fault for mentioning anything in the first place because I didn’t have to and I shouldn’t have, but yeah her saying all of that was very detrimental when I’m already at a high point of anxiety.

@CFE Ohhhh, gotcha, eh, I could try, but with scheduling conflicts I’m not sure how likely that could happen. I’d almost rather ditch the non-ocd one tbh lol because I was not happy last night with what she said at all.