please help every time i get the groinal response i go back to whatever i was looking at, at look at it again then look away. i repeat this over and over until i can successfully do this without getting the groinal response. i’ve also noticed when i get the groinal response i experience a shortness of breath. it makes me feel like i enjoy when i really hate it. i just want to make this go away but i have no idea how to do that. i also procrastinate and can’t do what i want to do until the compulsion i mentioned above is just right.

It’s great that you’re talking about it! it seems like you’re feeling a lot of doubt and anxiety around it. I know this may sound oversimplified, but doing your best to check less and less, like baby steps(tiny ones) and sit with the doubt more (bit by tiny bit) adds up. Acknowledging the smallest victories can help you move a lot over time.

Don't make it go away, let it scare you and hurt you by holding back your impulses. By trying to prove ocd that it's wrong you'll just do what it wants and give it power. "Groinal response? Then groinal response it is. F*ck off ocd!".

I’m sorry. OCD is trying to trap you and you are so caught up in it. I agree with what has been said. This sounds like a compulsion. Try to discern what the trigger was that preceded it. I find that it can be very difficult to discern between the two. Try to see if you can and then breathe thru the discomfort caused by the trigger and actively refuse to engage in the compulsion. You will make it thru that discomfort.

I’ve read that arousal is a form of anxiety and that for those of us with ocd our bodies do not know the difference between arousal that we want or desire vs arousal triggered by anxiety. If you think about the physiology of it that makes sense. People without ocd probably do not experience the arousal we do precisely because they are not so anxious. It’s not easy to do but try telling yourself that you’ll never know and say to yourself also that it’s okay to not know for sure and that no one else knows for sure either.