Anonymous_234
- Date posted
- 3y ago
elainabhelainabh
- Date posted
- 3y ago
If this is an existential-OCD type thought, I would encourage you to dismiss it with the shrug of your shoulders! If it’s rooted in hopelessness, know that you are not alone, and I’ve made so much progress in recovery. It can be so hard to see life on the other side but keep going! A good friend of mine who has recovered from severe OCD keeps me motivated. You’ve got this even when it feels like you don’t. You’re so much stronger than you think, and don’t forget to give yourself some love and compassion!! You are doing something so hard others cannot even imagine, feeling exhausted and hopeless can be normal reactions to doing very challenging emotional work. I believe in you and I’m so glad you’re here <3. More of you is here right now than you think :)
Anonymous_234Anonymous_234
- Date posted
- 3y ago
thank you so so much, i appreciate you for commenting your comment calmed me down a little bit im having the worst mental breakdown. i feel so exhausted from everything. it’s so so so hard. i feel like my whole life is ruined, like i’ll never be me again. it’s so scary and sad to think about, i had so much plans for my future and i’m only 17 so to feel my life crashing down at such a young age is so physically and mentally draining. these thoughts keep getting more and more intense everyday. im starting to think ocd is almost there at winning me over. im so scared of becoming my thoughts. or losing control😞
Anonymous_234Anonymous_234
- Date posted
- 3y ago
i dont allow myself to feel happy anymore or when it comes down to trying to buy myself something i just can’t because of all the guilt and shame i have from these thoughts. im struggling so bad..
Ocd_haterOcd_hater
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@Anonymous_234 I am going thru the similar situation like u. It is very hard but I feel like u need to realise that these thoughts are just thoughts and u are just anxious. Btw I am 17 too so u are not alone.
elainabhelainabh
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@Anonymous_234 It sounds like you could really benefit from experimenting with trying some of the things that make you happy and make life meaningful for you! From what you are describing, I feel I have been where you are. And I still have moments like that sometimes. The commenter who said it’s helpful to really see this as anxiety and the thoughts as thoughts I think is spot on. The more practice you get at focusing on being in the moment and the joyful emotions you do get, the better you will get at being more present and connected to happiness. You are so so deserving of life on the other side, and part of recovery is living right now as much as you can. Whether the OCD thoughts and feelings pop up is under your brain’s control, but what you do and choose to focus on, you have a lot of control of. Even if it doesn’t feel like it at first, you will get better at ignoring these thoughts and feelings, and you’ll have so much space to be yourself you won’t know what to do with it. I hope this helps! Your comments have helped me in my understanding and growth too <3
Bamboozled11Bamboozled11
- Date posted
- 3y ago
It's that very thought that made me try to kill myself twice last year and I have wanted to die every minute of every day until I managed to find ways to improve my situation. The good news is, you will. Please don't give up, you might not see it right now but there is hope. Keep going. ❤️
rabbitleafrabbitleaf
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I have been in that position. I was 12 and thought my future was all just ocd. But then I went through exposure therapy and it is so so so much hard work. Ocd is hellish and therapy for it can feel that way too, but it is worth it and I believe in you. Take it one day at a time. ❤️ I’m 22 now and I am on this app because yes I still get relapses at times, BUT I can proudly say that I don’t feel ocd has control over my life like it used to and it has never been as bad as when I was 12. Things get better and healing is possible ❤️ sending strength and hope for you. You have a future. Even if ocd feels like it is taking away who you are, you are amazing and you have strength, depth, complexity and heart that ocd can never truly take away ❤️
rabbitleafrabbitleaf
- Date posted
- 3y ago
*therapy is so much work but so worth it (lol I just cut one of my sentences short - I hope my dramatic speech still made sense and wasn’t overly dramatic… hehe)
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