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That's the spirit! At the end of the day, this is how it goes, up and down as it gradually gets slightly better. I'm experiencing the same thing so I know how it feels. Don't ever give up :)
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Does anyone else ever feel like they don’t feel “bad enough” to have OCD, or that they don’t feel “the right way” for it? Or like they’re just saying they have OCD as an excuse? Because i was so much better for like 3 weeks now and now im on my period and i started doubting again. So because of that im scared that i was feeling to good and that my fear is actually true.
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