Hello:) I can feel myself getting better and I’m proud. Although, When I’m starting feel good feelings and like myself it feels fake, it feels like I shouldn’t be, and it feels like somethings wrong because I’m feeling better, but at the same time when I feel good I get all this energy to do something because I finally feel “good.” This happens every once in a while..it’s just a reminder that healing isn’t linear 💙 some times it’s going to be really hard and feel really real..while others it’s going to feel like everything is somewhat more quiet than it has been. I get scared that my OCD is going to get bad again..like really scared. And that’s okay. Im trying to give myself permission to feel these things without avoidance, and I’m working on that In every second of everyday and night.
If it’s really hard right now just know I hear you, and I understand you. I feel your pain and I promise you, it will get better :))💞you, me, and all of us are strong enough and got this!!