girlanon
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
OCDuser04OCDuser04
- Date posted
- 3y
I know how it feels. I struggled with TOCD for ages. I recovered from it and realised that (in my belief) gender isn’t real. It’s created by people but there’s no real rule saying that it’s real. It doesn’t exist. It’s a social construct. Only came form peoples head. So why should I have to think about it so much? I can do what I want, be called what I want, choose what I want to do with my identity. If I woke up one day and decided I wanted to be referred to as a different pronoun then I would bloody well ask someone to call me it. I don’t though because I never feel the need to.
OCDuser04OCDuser04
- Date posted
- 3y
I’m still a girl. But my brain has nothing to do with it. I can do what I want and it wouldn’t matter. If I developed a strong desire to have a gender surgery, then after a while I would have it. If I woke up and decided I don’t want to be called a girl anymore, I’d act on it. I’ll just go with what I want at the moment. It is my choice. I know this may seem scary now, my TOCD hit so hard that I didn’t sleep or eat, and I hate the sick feeling it gets. I know you may feel as if you can’t see your real desires, and that your identity seems blurry But it doesn’t matter in the long run. That’s how I see it. I really hope this isn’t triggering.
girlanongirlanon
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
@OCDuser04 It's not triggering. In this moment, I need out of my female body and name and pronouns so badly. I need to get rid of this body. I can't live in it anymore. I'm terrified.
OCDuser04OCDuser04
- Date posted
- 3y
@Kaylaaaa I know how it feels. Take it easy. Are you anxious because you feel bad in a female body or that you are scared of being trans?
girlanongirlanon
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
@OCDuser04 Both
TeabeleaferTeabeleafer
- Date posted
- 3y
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