- Date posted
- 3y
- Date posted
- 3y
I have alot of envy towards normal ppl I have ever since I started haveing ocd I have alot of rituals and rules that I’ve been doing for 15 years my ocd tells me don’t do this and don’t do that if you do this you gotta do it this way so little things are hard to do so when I go out I see ppl wit there hair done and makeup done and I can’t do those things so easily cause showering has it’s own ritual washing my hair does to I have to put my hair products in my hair a certain way brush and blow dry and put my hair up only in a bun I can’t do any other hair style and I can only straighten it if I wear it down I have to straighten it to wear it down I can’t just leave my hair down natural when I first got ocd I was young makeup and hairstyles weren’t really an issue cause I was a kid so I used concealer and foundation and just straightened my hair I was haveing to try so hard to just do that everyday that’s all I ever did now that I’m older I just created a habit of only wearing that makeup and doing those hairstyles cause it’s all I’ve ever been able to do cause doing the simplest of things is harder for me and when I watch ppl on tiktok do there makeup sitting werever infront of there phones all kinds of makeup up products just layed out everywere touching everything they just pick up watever put it on whichever way and move on but my stuff can’t touch it needs a clean place to set I’d have to wash my hands in between touching stuff I couldn’t touch my contaminated phone while applying makeup either and I have to do almost everything in an order and symmetry kind of way like always starting wit a certain eye then doing it completely then moveing to the next eye I couldn’t just do a different eye each time I couldn’t do one eye then the other then go back to the first eye everything’s done in a certain order it makes me so mad watching normal ppl do stuff I want to just be late for work and take a quick shower put dry shampoo in mt hair and throw some clothes on but I can’t cause all those things have a ritual it’s gotta be done a certain way and mt dressing ritual takes awhile I also have to wash mt hands prior to doing anything hygienic wise it just is no way to live.
- Date posted
- 3y
i understand that you feel hopeless and scared but there is a way to recover from ocd as there is with other things. me myself, without meaning to trigger you, thought that i would not be able to get better and that this was just it, and i didn't want to be here anymore. but with the right therapy and support it can get better, you still have a chance at a happy life. i'm sorry that you experiencing such suffering everyday but it makes you so strong and i'm so proud of you
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- 21w
I hope everyone is doing well today, and for those of you who are struggling my thoughts and prayers are with you. Just know your moment of peace is coming soon. I think it’s important that we post / come on here every now and again even when we are not in a moment of pure panic and fear. Remember that we are not our thoughts as hard as it is to understand. Remember that OCD makes it feel “real” and that OCD will always make us think the most inappropriate things and the most inappropriate times. Remember that all humans, have thoughts that come and go and as hard as it can be to understand you are not alone in your thoughts that feel so unique. For me I get a lot of anxiety from thoughts I used to have , which of course makes them return in full throttle. The more I push them away the more they come back. And those thought makes new connections to those things in my life I value. OCD is a pain but it’s important that as much as you hate it you learn to be compassionate and understanding that it’s there to “help” you no matter how bad it does it job sometimes. Stay strong everyone
- Date posted
- 21w
So i am dealing with my third relapse of ocd and this time the theme is paranormal. So you can imagine how distressing it is. My ocd creates image intrusive thoughts and even gets scared and doubts normal eye vision things. But i am learning through it. But here are some things i have learned and learning : 1. Don't try to runaway from triggers : one thing i have learnt is that we may think that if we runaway from triggers our ocd thoughts will stop, its a big no, it will never because in ocd anything and everything can be a trigger. So even if you think that sitting in your room and not going out will help you, i will say for sometime but then again ocd will come up with new fear. Now i know it will create anxiety but don't runaway from your triggers it is indirectly feeding your loop. 2. Also i would say that try to ignore these thoughts and image intrusive thoughts. No matter how much they come try to shift your focus on something else. Something that gives you happiness like try to think about your dream job and what will happen if you get it, daydreaming a bit is necessary to ignore these negative thoughts, think of your family and friends, your crush, your love maybe. And after few minutes when you shift your focus towards other thoughts and things you will eventually realise that these negative thoughts lose their importance. I know it is extremely tough to shift your focus but you need to do it. Think about your hopeful future, imagine yourself being happy. 3. Ocd brings in a lot of anxiety which leads to brain fog and anxiety and anxiety can create fake sensations, visions and beliefs. It can even cause fake smell also, so whenever ocd brings in the thought that what if i saw something, or what if i listened to something, what if i smelled something just say that anxiety creates fake sensations and it is scientifically proven. Also due to anxiety we become hypersensitive so our senses become more active they tend to notice things more easily. Like being hypersensitive means you will notice normal sounds more, peripheral vision illusions more certain smells more. And it is fine, our body is in hyper alert mode so it will. 4. Even when you start feeling a bit fine and bit okay don't expect that ocd will fade away immediately. It won't fade away immediately, it will take time, your hyper sensitive and anxious brain will take time to normalise things. It may take month or something. And in this moment you will get intrusive thoughts, maybe more weird or bizzarre images or thoughts. Because the brain had gotten into the habit of negative thinking, worrying and anxiety so yeah there will be moments when it will doubt many things, when it will bring extreme intrusive thoughts, try your best to not ruminate over it. 5. I have realised that we ocd sufferers have one thing in common we are very creative people, we love art and expression. And our minds have the habit of constantly think something. I have noticed that my ocd relapses only when my mind is empty, like when it has nothing else to think about, when i am idle and and my life is lonely with no external stimulation. So try to find a purpose and give direction to yourself that's it. Ocd increases when serotonin and dopamine decrease so try to maintain your serotonin and dopamine levels by having healthy diet, investing it into something you like maybe writing, art, music, acting anything you like. You can start a blog or a page or write a book about your ocd journey. 6. Lastly i would say that accept it that yes my brain is a bit more anxious, and it is fine. Also everyone is fighting a battle inside them, we are suffering from our thoughts, some are dealing with something else, and don't try to seek much reassurance or give attention to ocd thoughts, just let it be there and shift your focus. Think about how there are much important things in your life. And ocd happens when we are very scaredy like the ones who get scared easily, so try to win over your fears, win over it. It picks up our greatest fears and feeds on it. Win over these fears that's it. At the end i would say yes the fight is very tough, even though i have understood so many things about it, yet many days i go through the depression, i go through the anxiety, i go through the sadness, and there are days when i just sleep a lot to escape these thoughts and this fear because paranormal ocd is very draining. But i am learning through it and yes one day we all will defeat it. Keep learning, keep fighting, keep growing, stay strong. Ocd is just our mind trying to pull itself inwards away from the external world. Get into the external world, face the real life and real issues, ocd thoughts are imaginary and not real issues.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 16w
I’m sure it’s been a rough few days for everyone, maybe even weeks or months. Hell, this last YEAR has been up and down for me! But I wanted to take this moment to congratulate everyone for coming this far. It’s no small feat! OCD is a killer, and it’s good at its job! The fact that all of you are still here fighting is a testament to how strong you are! We may not have the answers or explanation to everything, and that’s okay. We have to stay in the present, not the past or the future. Remember to practice being uncertain! It’s hard to remember the good days we’ve had despite all these horrible ones! There’s no scar to show for happiness, but we’ve got plenty to show for misery and pain. Keep hanging on, you’ve got this!
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