- Date posted
- 3y
- Date posted
- 3y
I have alot of envy towards normal ppl I have ever since I started haveing ocd I have alot of rituals and rules that I’ve been doing for 15 years my ocd tells me don’t do this and don’t do that if you do this you gotta do it this way so little things are hard to do so when I go out I see ppl wit there hair done and makeup done and I can’t do those things so easily cause showering has it’s own ritual washing my hair does to I have to put my hair products in my hair a certain way brush and blow dry and put my hair up only in a bun I can’t do any other hair style and I can only straighten it if I wear it down I have to straighten it to wear it down I can’t just leave my hair down natural when I first got ocd I was young makeup and hairstyles weren’t really an issue cause I was a kid so I used concealer and foundation and just straightened my hair I was haveing to try so hard to just do that everyday that’s all I ever did now that I’m older I just created a habit of only wearing that makeup and doing those hairstyles cause it’s all I’ve ever been able to do cause doing the simplest of things is harder for me and when I watch ppl on tiktok do there makeup sitting werever infront of there phones all kinds of makeup up products just layed out everywere touching everything they just pick up watever put it on whichever way and move on but my stuff can’t touch it needs a clean place to set I’d have to wash my hands in between touching stuff I couldn’t touch my contaminated phone while applying makeup either and I have to do almost everything in an order and symmetry kind of way like always starting wit a certain eye then doing it completely then moveing to the next eye I couldn’t just do a different eye each time I couldn’t do one eye then the other then go back to the first eye everything’s done in a certain order it makes me so mad watching normal ppl do stuff I want to just be late for work and take a quick shower put dry shampoo in mt hair and throw some clothes on but I can’t cause all those things have a ritual it’s gotta be done a certain way and mt dressing ritual takes awhile I also have to wash mt hands prior to doing anything hygienic wise it just is no way to live.
- Date posted
- 3y
i understand that you feel hopeless and scared but there is a way to recover from ocd as there is with other things. me myself, without meaning to trigger you, thought that i would not be able to get better and that this was just it, and i didn't want to be here anymore. but with the right therapy and support it can get better, you still have a chance at a happy life. i'm sorry that you experiencing such suffering everyday but it makes you so strong and i'm so proud of you
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- 24w
I hope everyone is doing well today, and for those of you who are struggling my thoughts and prayers are with you. Just know your moment of peace is coming soon. I think it’s important that we post / come on here every now and again even when we are not in a moment of pure panic and fear. Remember that we are not our thoughts as hard as it is to understand. Remember that OCD makes it feel “real” and that OCD will always make us think the most inappropriate things and the most inappropriate times. Remember that all humans, have thoughts that come and go and as hard as it can be to understand you are not alone in your thoughts that feel so unique. For me I get a lot of anxiety from thoughts I used to have , which of course makes them return in full throttle. The more I push them away the more they come back. And those thought makes new connections to those things in my life I value. OCD is a pain but it’s important that as much as you hate it you learn to be compassionate and understanding that it’s there to “help” you no matter how bad it does it job sometimes. Stay strong everyone
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 19w
I’m sure it’s been a rough few days for everyone, maybe even weeks or months. Hell, this last YEAR has been up and down for me! But I wanted to take this moment to congratulate everyone for coming this far. It’s no small feat! OCD is a killer, and it’s good at its job! The fact that all of you are still here fighting is a testament to how strong you are! We may not have the answers or explanation to everything, and that’s okay. We have to stay in the present, not the past or the future. Remember to practice being uncertain! It’s hard to remember the good days we’ve had despite all these horrible ones! There’s no scar to show for happiness, but we’ve got plenty to show for misery and pain. Keep hanging on, you’ve got this!
- Date posted
- 19w
I'm sry if this may make people worry or feel uncomfortable in advance! Hello everyone as u can see I struggle with ocd and I HATE IT WITH MY LIFE , it started in 2020 covid obv contamination ocd started here , I used to carry alcohol everywhere and used to wash my hands so much that it bled ( had to wear gloves to cover it so friends or family won't see it ) and everything else started since then , harm ocd with myself or friends I couldn't hold a knife..it was really hard..and I have unwanted sexual thoughts ocd , I have panic attacks bc of this..I sometimes cannot look people into their eyes and its so random and so scary..thoughts about.. 🍇..whether it's me or I'm gonna harm someone else uk..I sometimes cannot function properly.. unfortunately friends don't understand it rather think it's about " perfectionism "..I wrote those thoughts and stuff in a journal in more details ofc and doodle ( I'm scared someone will find it ) I hate myself tbh and I don't think someone will read this... I suspect I have ADHD with all this but ocd is " ur faking it " even though lots of people have hinted about it , I thought I actually killed someone for 2 years a girl..until I realized what HOCD is , I thought I faked my ocd too in fact , I have perfectionism ocd too it's bad and I HATE PURE O it's so DRAINING uk.. also idk if this has caused a problem for anyone but if y'all know the Truman show ( basically if u don't know the main character is being filmed and his life is fake and he doesn't know it ) THAT MOVIE HAS HARMED ME SO BADLY FOR YEARS that until today I have to check in the bathroom if there are cameras cuz like ocd makes me think I'm living in a fake world , I used to think people around me , everyone was like a Ai model or smth.. everytime until today I have to clean the toilet seat bc it may be dirty..I have been taking up to 5 showers a day cuz maybe I'm dirty..that's it for today tysm if u read this till the end I'd like to know ur thoughts if u got tips or have similar experiences ! 🤗 U get a chocolate bar 🍫 bc u earned it bc ik how ocd is so frustrating ( I also noticed everyone who has ocd is so nice right 😆! )
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