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Here's what I believe. We are all sexual beings. God made us that way. Sexuality runs on a spectrum. It isn't black and white. I'm a female and I've been turned on by watching the girl do sexual things in straight porn. It is the content that turns me on. Does that make me bi? I don't think so. I don't have to identify as bi if I don't feel it describes me. This has helped me so much with my HOCD.
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- 6y
Yes I do. I get all kinds of thoughts and feelings. It's a part of being human.
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- 6y
It doesn't mean anything even if you've had thoughts before HOCD. We are sexual beings.
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- 6y
I've used Google as a compulsion, and I've looked up articles on this. And a few people said if you masturbate and have these thoughts that means your gay. And I can't stop worrying about that now
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- 6y
Yeah I think a big problem with HOCD is that tired old trope of “does that make me gay”...like it’s a magic button that gets pressed...you can literally fuck a guy and not be gay, like I have friends who’ve kissed men, realized that it wasn’t bad but they slightly prefer women so they don’t identify as gay...like intrusive thoughts about dudes when you masterbate doesn’t necessarily mean you’re gay but it doesn’t necessarily mean anything...you can be a straight guy who kind of wants to blow a dude for some weird reason...sexuality is a weird crazy spectrum, don’t let it bother you, the worst case scenario here isn’t really that bad
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- 25w
Last night I was self pleasuring. I didn’t set out to think about anything weird but as I was doing it some pocd thoughts were in my brain. I did not get off to them, but I could have. Idk why that is but it is. Idk what to do and idk why I am this way. Is there some science about the brain while aroused or is it possible that the more gross or taboo something is I can like it?? Idk, just want to know if anyone can relate.
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- 21w
I was having intimacy. Watching p0rn. And during climax i got intrusive thoughts a d anxious. I hate when this happens. As a compulsion whenever i get intrusive ocd thoughts i usually think of my wife or therapist (whose a man) and say their name. For my wife its because shes the love of my life. My comfort. And during intimacy of course to arouse over her. When i think of my therapist its not anything sexual its just like a comforting thought since hes the one that is helping me thru ocd. But now ocd is saying why did i think lf him during climax. And in my head i heard my voicr saying his name but this was my way of distracting myself from the intrusive thoughts. It wasnt to arouse myself over him it was tk distract myself and it wasnt a compulsion. Ocd tries associating it with my sexual experience and its making me feel very guilty and anxious. Then i worry was i saying his name. I did in my head but it wasnt again a compulsion tk distract from ocd. Then that made me anxious so i said my wifes name and thougjt kf her. I just had intrusive thought so i panicked and out of compulsive habit i usual say thr name of my wifr and therapist
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- 15w
I’ve recovered from HOCD before and got my attraction and my usual actual identity back. I was recovered from end 2022- start 2025 until I got triggered UGHHH😭 My HOCD is REALLY trying to convince me and it’s SO annoying cause I genuinely don’t want these thoughts. I know I naturally like men and always have done so. I can’t wait for my first therapy session in two days Omg! I need your advice, not necessarily reassurance, but more advice? My HOCD is throwing random “proof” I did/ saw as a child in my face, which back then had no meaning in my life and I continued to live a perfectly heterosexual life. I’ve educated myself about arousal non concordance / child’s play, but it still doesn’t remove the HOCD. I’ve read therapists great explanations on how it’s not a sexuality issue, BUT ITS AN OCD BRAIN ISSUE. So basically I’ve been straight and i will die as straight. But my ocd is still continuing with the intrusive thoughts/flashbacks. I’ve had some moments where I haven’t done as many compulsions and had less anxiety but still had those damn thoughts and I DO NOT want those damn thoughts. I have so much proof and factual/logical explanations but HOCD is still continuing to thrive. I absolutely hate this and I feel so alone. I wish there was a reset button cause I don’t want these thoughts to happen. I want a man and I stand by that. How do y’all deal with these situations? Cause sitting with the thoughts is clearly not helping.
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