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- 6y ago
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- 6y ago
Here's what I believe. We are all sexual beings. God made us that way. Sexuality runs on a spectrum. It isn't black and white. I'm a female and I've been turned on by watching the girl do sexual things in straight porn. It is the content that turns me on. Does that make me bi? I don't think so. I don't have to identify as bi if I don't feel it describes me. This has helped me so much with my HOCD.
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- 6y ago
Yes I do. I get all kinds of thoughts and feelings. It's a part of being human.
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- 6y ago
It doesn't mean anything even if you've had thoughts before HOCD. We are sexual beings.
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- 6y ago
I've used Google as a compulsion, and I've looked up articles on this. And a few people said if you masturbate and have these thoughts that means your gay. And I can't stop worrying about that now
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- 6y ago
Yeah I think a big problem with HOCD is that tired old trope of “does that make me gay”...like it’s a magic button that gets pressed...you can literally fuck a guy and not be gay, like I have friends who’ve kissed men, realized that it wasn’t bad but they slightly prefer women so they don’t identify as gay...like intrusive thoughts about dudes when you masterbate doesn’t necessarily mean you’re gay but it doesn’t necessarily mean anything...you can be a straight guy who kind of wants to blow a dude for some weird reason...sexuality is a weird crazy spectrum, don’t let it bother you, the worst case scenario here isn’t really that bad
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- 17w ago
I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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- 13w ago
I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
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- 11w ago
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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