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Grief is a huge part of the recovery journey and process for so many people. OCD has taken a lot from you, has changed a lot for you, and if you're anything like the many people I work with, you may feel like your brain has been broken in a sense. I want you to know that so many other people feel this way. And I don't think it has to be this way forever. I do think it's important to let go of the wanting to "go back" ie to the way things were, to the way your life was before OCD... it may never be the same. It can be different in a good way and in some other not so good ways, but looking back only will make us feel worse. Practicing radical acceptance from dialectical behavioral therapy (DBT) will be important here. "It is what it is" - it means we don't have to like our current situation, we can certainly work to improve it- but we accept what is right now that we cannot change and we don't want to do anything to exacerbate our suffering. Sending you so much love.
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Thank you for your kind words.
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I completely understand how you feel. Especially wanting to go back to the girl I was when I wasn’t struggling with ocd at all. But unfortunately that’s how life works. The past is past us. The future is further from us and although it can be scary, it can be beautiful too. OCD has torn my life apart but it has made me stronger and it’s taught me a lot. I guess the best thing to do is just stay positive and remember you are not alone. Stay strong and live your life to the fullest and don’t let ocd take that away from you
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My ocd was absolutely awful on a big day in my life. I was devastated. But now I can look back and see how far I have come, and that makes me proud. You can do the same.
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same. how much of me is even really left? i feel totally gutted.
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What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger 👌
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this is how i feel rn😞
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