Please help me guys 🥺 My last post from 10 mins ago is killing me. The sensations omg I don’t want to be here.

Right now that's ocd and panic speaking, only that, nothing more, nothing less. Don't explain yourself to it, it'll say the most bizarre things to you and then try everything it has to make you believe it. DO NOT explain yourself, you don't have to because you are you, NOT what IT says you are. It could literally tell you you have three heads and make you genuinely believe it, it's an illness that can convince you about anything but at the end of the day, what it gives you is nothing more than lies.I have no advice to give you about your panic attack and your intense feelings of distress since I'm not a professional. I just feel you because I've been there. Just know that it will pass and you'll get a hold of of your calm side once again soon. Wish you the best. You're not alone.

Also about Flexeril,i would suggest you speak about it to a professional. It's very possible that it may have affected you negatively.

@LydiaK Thank you 🙏🏻 I appreciate that

@LydiaK I think it’s worse that it’s a lack of reaction. I’m scared I’m seeing these women on beat Bobby Flay and if they have giant round like basically bolder boobs and I was describing them initially as gorgeous or luscious but they’re not I don’t wanna be by and I keep acting like I do but I don’t like boobs and I don’t know I don’t know if I think about it so much that I’m conditioning myself to miss but I don’t miss the presents I don’t know but my lack of reaction kind of scares me I’ve how chill my brain is on the inside and I know that sounds weird but it’s it’s a I’m scared I’m blushing when I described it but they’re not gorgeous and I keep imagining them naked and I’m so sorry that I don’t make sense. I keep saying convince but I don’t doesn’t feel right but I don’t like the way I’m smiling you know I don’t like my like a reaction and I’m blushing I don’t like women’s chest of any shape or size and I’m scared I’m smart I don’t wanna start I don’t like the way I’m smiling I don’t wanna start liking the way they stick out OK and I want my guys chest muscles like I want you guys to come back and it’s just I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to repeat myself basically I’m just don’t like it or not like you the way I’m smiling and how my brain is chill trying to but I don’t wanna like the I’m fine I’m smiling I’m imagining I keep calling them as but they’re not hot but it’s big and round they’re not hot and I’ve seen X-rated shit and keep imagine those sticking out and bouncing or being really firm in limp and shit and I hate it I don’t wanna start liking that shit up and I am Scared that I think about it so much that I can’t anymore bye I’m more than appreciate balls I’m scared I can’t stop like I do I don’t want that and act like there’s something wrong but I don’t want guys to get like boobs do and I don’t want triangles and I hate it and I am so fucking gosh dang sorry. I’m sorry I’m scared I just don’t want to get over guys and switch teams but thank you for listening to me I appreciate it

@Bookworm91 Just let those images pass by, it will hurt but let them. As i said, don't explain yourself because that's what you're currently doing. Cry, scream, run, jump, anything but trying to give an explanation on why those ocd thoughts aren't true. Don't empower it, this way you'll make it win and come back stronger. Believe me, the relief you'll feel after the anxiety of uncertainty passes is really REALLY rewarding.

@LydiaK I’ll do my best. The worst is looking at my guy like he’s weird you know what I mean like he’s forming because he’s a heat even though obviously I want he’s not she’s. I want guys sorry I guess that’s what I was trying to say

@Bookworm91 I just wish you good luck. I hope things will get better for you❤️

@LydiaK Thanks 🙏🏻