Please answer (unless too private or something) Do you ever get that thing where you rapidly switch between a thing being an exposure and being a compulsion? Like "My OCD says I must do X, so I must avoid X" to "If I do X, my OCD will get worse, so I must avoid X compulsively" and back and forth

Ocd tells you the opposite so do the opposite of what your ocd tells you to do.

That's the thing... do you ever... You feel like you have to do the opposite so then OCD tells you to do the opposite, so now you must do the original thing so OCD tells you to do the original thing, and so on and you can't do either

@disclaimer in bio Alright for instance I’ll walk by my brother my ocd tells me don’t look at him or it’ll make you gay.. my ocd told me not to so I’m a be like fuck you im a look at him and then what bitch?.. then ocd will be like your gay now cuz you did look at him.. me: yup your right… ocd yells at me then rational mind saids stfu… still a little anxiety but better than having a back and forth of debating if I shouldn’t or not…

Yes, that’s completely normal. Truly accepting is realizing it’s okay to do and to not do X. For example I had to hand someone their larger drink before their smaller drink, then I had to do it vise versa, but when I realized it didn’t matter what order I handed them out in and just grab one and hand it, is when my anxiety dissolved. Sometimes it helps to just do whatever you’re scared of, anything can become a compulsion if you worry about things becoming a compulsion.