is anyone else literally not able to describe some of their intrusive thoughts?? like you know it’s an intrusive thought/related to ocd but can’t describe how like idkkkk idek how to describe this my mind feels so crazy

It's quite common and not something you should worry too much about. When people say OCD "thought" they can mean a thought with words, mental image, urge, intrusive feeling... An OCD spike is usually three parts, a trigger which is noticed in your physical or mental world, the obsession the thought triggers (the theme) and finally the negative feeling it activates (anxiety, guilt, shame, depression, anger...). When an OCD spike occurs those three activate at almost the same time, which coupled with sneaky mental compulsions can make it really hard to define the thoughts but that's not even required nor important. That's one of the reasons why working with a therapist on your OCD can make your life much easier.

Right like my mind is constantly thinking sometimes I can’t even remember the intrusive thought I’m anxious over??

That was very informative

I'm the same way....feel emotionally numb.