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Anonymous
16d ago

People who have fully recovered or are very close, what does “recovered” look like? Asking cause I want some hope for the future

koitoi
16d ago
hey there! i just wanted to say that i’ve had pocd and iocd and have recovered (i believe) from both of those themes. my experience now is that some of these thoughts will come up and it could be a bit cumbersome in the moment, but quickly dissolves. much less and distressing and doesn’t last long at all. i believe in you 🌸
Anonymous_234
16d ago
how long did your recovery take?🥺
koitoi
16d ago
@Anonymous_234 actually! due to not receiving a diagnosis until 2 years ago and having no awareness of this as ocd, it took over 10 years. there were breaking points where i thought i couldn’t go on, but it was possible to get to the other side of it.
koitoi
16d ago
@Anonymous_234 that’s not to say that every recovery journey is going to be 10+ years. i just meant that having no information on it seemed to prolong it. just wanted for throw that in there!
Anonymous
16d ago
@koitoi What did you do? Did you take meds?
koitoi
16d ago
@Anonymous well pocd and icod are those types of themes that are hard to talk about, so i never seeked for reassurance. i just avoided a lot, searched online, tried to go back in memories whenever i felt anxiety. when i finally opened up about to someone else, i wanted to ask for reassurance multiple times a day, but i didn’t. i think that is what helped it eventually fade out.
Anonymous
16d ago
@koitoi So Did you just distract yourself?
Anonymous_234
16d ago
@koitoi i was the same way when my thoughts started 3 years ago, i never seeked reassurance & when i would google something and nothing related to me i would just wait for the anxiety to fade away but yet again i didn’t know it was ocd so i was severely terrified of getting called a monster or even getting locked away for my thoughts. but ever since my relapse i’ll i’ve been doing is seeking reassurance and it only made my ocd 20x worse..
Anonymous
16d ago
Thank you koitoi for commenting! I learned about 2 years ago that what I was experiencing was ocd and after about 1 1/2 years of trying to beat it without seeking help I eventually went on setraline because I had reached my breaking point. This has helped a lot with my overwhelming emotions which has in turn helped with not doing compulsions and I’m hoping to start therapy without chickening out within the next month. I’m glad to have heard your story because it truly does give me hope. My initial themes were false memory and reocd and after doing compulsions (confessions) many times to my boyfriend, it now has become relationship ocd where I’m concerned that my boyfriend isn’t right for me even though I know all the way through that I want to marry him and we’ve been together for 3 years. Everyday feels like a uphill battle but I try to picture myself not dealing with ocd to make it better.