It's 2 AM and tomorrow I have an interrogation and I have to wake early to study but I can't sleep because I've suddenly had nostalgia attacks about Minecraft, and I've been reminiscing the old times. I'm fucking crying over MINECRAFT memories, this is so weird and ridiculous, I'm 16 years old ffs. I'm so emotionally vulnerable. Sometimes I get overwhelmed by this melancholia of the past and it hurts, and this is one of those times. I lost all of my minecraft friends in one day. I've never even got to say goodbye. I'll never find closure. This was during middle school when the only friends I had were on Minecraft. Now I'm in high school, why can't I just let it go?

this was very comforting and also a beautiful message, it gave me some closure, thank you so much

@scenic you're right haha thanks for the concern!

@scenic Nono that didn't sound anything like that at all!! It actually helped me settle to fall asleep and now I woke up to study :)(3hrs of sleep huh but better than nothing)

@scenic I've just had the interrogation and it surprisingly went smoothly, I'm so relieved!!!

But isn't grief a lot different? This is minecraft that we are talking about, a game. It's childish to be even sad about it. But still, I'm really sad that I'll never get to see them again, that I'll never get to experience the joy and the excitement that came playing with them in the server. The server got deleted and with that all my memories inside of it. We had a lot of fun. But there isn't any trace of it anymore. I'm so torn apart because a part of me wants to forget, to delete the memories and finally move on, but a part of me still holds on to it, because if I deleted everything I'd be doing a disservice to the young me who considered those memories to be very meaningful. I tried to reach out to one of my friends once, but I failed and lost my chance to reconnect with that person because of my own mistakes. I also carry a lot of guilt for that.

sorry you don't have to reply I needed to get this off my chest. Now I feel better and I can go to sleep