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Hope you will feel better soon...hugsšš
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You will get back to your old self in time and with treatment ā„ļø this wonāt last forever :)
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I feel you
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Iāve been going through this rough patch for the last four months, and I can already feel an even worse one coming. I just feel scared. And on top of that, Iām going to stop therapy. After everything with my current therapist, I just donāt have the strength to keep trying anymore. I feel hopeless. My head hurts so much, and itās hard to keep going when everything feels this bad. I just want to cry, hope this feeling passes, and maybe try again if it ever lets up. But right now, it feels like nothing will ever get better. I donāt feel like I can ask for help. I hate that it took me so long to realize this wasnāt the therapist for me. I was too scared of being dramatic, so I let it go on for far too long, and now I feel like Iāve just become a burden-like. I hate that I let it get to that point, especially when I was paying for this. I just want to give up. I feel broken down, and I donāt even want to be okay anymore.
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- 19w
I donāt understand why I donāt feel happy, why my mind keeps making me think so negatively about him. Nothing makes me feel joy anymore. I keep thinking that heās stupid, that I donāt like him, and when he speaks kindly to me, I feel nothing. The worst part is that I feel completely numb, like I have no emotions at all. And that makes me think that maybe I really donāt like him, that I will eventually reach a point where I realize my worst fear is true. I keep fighting with him because of my attitude. I treat him badly, and I know itās because of my thoughts. I canāt see the good in anything. Today, he told me that I would be better off without him because I always seem so sad. He moved to my city for university just to be with me, and instead of making his life better, I feel like Iām making it worse. The thoughts donāt stop, even when Iām with him. I see people posting about how they feel calm when theyāre with their partners, but I donāt. I canāt look at him without having intrusive thoughts, and I canāt even kiss him. Today, he told me that he doesnāt feel loved by me anymore, that I treat him poorly. I am constantly afraid because I feel nothing when he says things to me, because I donāt feel like I care. When I look at pictures of us from when I was in a better place, I feel like I was a completely different person. I start thinking that Iāve āmaturedā and thatās why I donāt feel anything anymoreālike maybe I only liked him because I was young and naĆÆve. Everything he does and says irritates me, but he loves me. What if Iām only with him because I donāt want to hurt him? What if Iām just used to him? I feel scared all the time. I donāt understand whatās happening. He keeps trying to apply logic, but it doesnāt work on me. So many times, he has tried to make me feel better, to tell me that I still care about him and that I donāt need to feel love all the time. But my heart breaks when I see how attached he is to me while I feel like I donāt feel the same way. I feel like Iām hurting him, and I donāt know how to get out of this dark place . He keeps trying to apply logic, but it doesnāt work on me. So many times, he has tried to make me feel better, to tell me that I still care about him and that I donāt need to feel love all the time. But my heart breaks when I see how attached he is to me while I feel like I donāt feel the same way. I feel like Iām hurting him, and I donāt know how to get out of this dark place
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For the past like 4 months, my ROCD has been getting worse and worse. Iāve been on lexapro for about 1.5 months now and itās basically gotten rid of my anxiety and intrusive thoughts. But now Iām stuck with the constant feeling of not loving my bf. At this point I canāt even recognize him as someone I love. Like I will stare at him and try to feel something or recognize him but I feel nothing. It feels like I donāt love him anymore, but I donāt want to give up. I donāt know what to do at this point. I donāt know if itās still the ocd and the medication is making it worse or if Iām truly just falling out of love with him. While not being on the verge of a panic attack and ruminating 24/7 is great, i feel like Iāve lost my identity and my emotions.
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